1 00:02:04,165 --> 00:02:05,959 Where do you live, Jan? 2 00:02:06,501 --> 00:02:08,211 In Harlow. 3 00:02:08,294 --> 00:02:09,880 What sort of house is it? 4 00:02:11,589 --> 00:02:14,425 It's all… it's all right. It's quite a nice house. 5 00:02:15,385 --> 00:02:17,470 It's one of those estate things, you know. 6 00:02:17,553 --> 00:02:20,181 Hmm. What does your father do? 7 00:02:21,182 --> 00:02:22,893 He's a storeman. 8 00:02:25,061 --> 00:02:27,313 What's he like, as a person? 9 00:02:29,858 --> 00:02:31,484 Yeah. He's all right. He's… 10 00:02:32,110 --> 00:02:34,279 He's a good worker, like, y… you know. 11 00:02:34,362 --> 00:02:36,865 He's had the same job ever since he left the army, 12 00:02:36,948 --> 00:02:41,077 and he never takes time off. And he's never late. 13 00:02:41,161 --> 00:02:42,370 Never ill? 14 00:02:42,453 --> 00:02:43,538 No. 15 00:02:48,251 --> 00:02:49,753 What about your mother? 16 00:02:58,678 --> 00:03:00,305 She a warm person? 17 00:03:07,103 --> 00:03:09,230 What did you say your name was? 18 00:03:09,314 --> 00:03:10,398 Mike. 19 00:03:13,401 --> 00:03:15,111 I don't like it here. 20 00:03:16,780 --> 00:03:21,117 Does it upset your, mother that, er, 21 00:03:21,201 --> 00:03:23,078 you've had so many different jobs? 22 00:03:24,788 --> 00:03:26,247 Oh, yeah. 23 00:03:27,498 --> 00:03:31,127 She says I am irresponsible. But I mean, sometimes I'd, 24 00:03:32,378 --> 00:03:34,881 I'd go to lunch and not come back again. 25 00:03:36,424 --> 00:03:38,384 Wanted to be an 'airdresser once. 26 00:03:38,468 --> 00:03:42,180 Had a Saturday job for a while in this place called Eve of Roma, 27 00:03:42,263 --> 00:03:44,057 down the High Street. 28 00:03:44,640 --> 00:03:46,810 I never really did any hair, you know, 29 00:03:46,893 --> 00:03:48,728 just sweeping up and doing things like that. 30 00:04:11,501 --> 00:04:13,586 Hold tight. Mind the doors. 31 00:05:24,365 --> 00:05:26,117 Do you live locally? 32 00:05:29,955 --> 00:05:32,290 When you were on the tube had you been to work, 33 00:05:32,373 --> 00:05:34,876 or had you just been shopping? 34 00:05:39,214 --> 00:05:43,218 I can't really help you unless you tell me some­thing about yourself. 35 00:05:44,928 --> 00:05:47,055 Joan, can I see you a minute, please? 36 00:05:50,641 --> 00:05:52,874 - I can't get anything out of her. - Nothing at all? Well… 37 00:05:52,894 --> 00:05:54,334 Look, I've been looking through her handbag 38 00:05:54,354 --> 00:05:55,271 and I've found out where she lives. 39 00:05:55,355 --> 00:05:56,231 And that is? 40 00:05:56,314 --> 00:05:57,462 Apparently she lives with her parents. 41 00:05:57,482 --> 00:05:59,775 I think we ought to contact them, don't you? 42 00:05:59,859 --> 00:06:02,653 Um, excuse me. It doesn't matter, really. 43 00:06:02,737 --> 00:06:05,448 I'll, I'll be all right. I can, you know, find my own way home. 44 00:06:05,531 --> 00:06:07,742 You don't need to tell my family. 45 00:06:07,825 --> 00:06:09,244 How do you feel now? 46 00:06:09,327 --> 00:06:11,162 - I feel all right. - Can I get you a doctor? 47 00:06:11,246 --> 00:06:13,206 No. No thank you. 48 00:06:13,289 --> 00:06:15,000 - Are you sure? - Yes. 49 00:06:45,655 --> 00:06:48,366 - I think you'd better... - That's it, get it in, come on. 50 00:06:48,449 --> 00:06:49,450 Thank you. 51 00:06:50,285 --> 00:06:52,308 Thank you for bringing her home. Thank you very much. 52 00:06:52,328 --> 00:06:53,413 All right. 53 00:06:57,625 --> 00:06:59,669 What's all this carry on, then? 54 00:06:59,752 --> 00:07:01,337 What the hell have you been up to? 55 00:07:01,421 --> 00:07:02,797 I haven't been up to anything. 56 00:07:02,880 --> 00:07:04,757 So the police just gave you a ride home then? 57 00:07:04,840 --> 00:07:07,093 Whatever's happened, Jan? Whatever's happened? 58 00:07:07,177 --> 00:07:08,761 - Nothing, Mum. - Are you sure? 59 00:07:08,844 --> 00:07:09,762 Yeah, really nothing. 60 00:07:09,845 --> 00:07:12,890 What do you mean? There's something must have happened. 61 00:07:12,974 --> 00:07:15,977 I was on the… I was just sitting on the tube platform, that's all. 62 00:07:16,061 --> 00:07:16,894 Not feeling well? 63 00:07:16,978 --> 00:07:18,699 You were just sitting on the tube platform? 64 00:07:18,771 --> 00:07:19,981 Yeah. 65 00:07:20,065 --> 00:07:22,047 And the police came and said, "We'll give you a lift home." 66 00:07:22,067 --> 00:07:22,900 Sit down. Sit down. 67 00:07:22,984 --> 00:07:25,403 Don't be so damn ridicu… What… what exactly happened? 68 00:07:25,486 --> 00:07:28,656 This guard came out of nowhere and he, 69 00:07:28,739 --> 00:07:30,866 grabbed me arm and stuff and… 70 00:07:30,950 --> 00:07:31,951 - You know. - He just… 71 00:07:32,035 --> 00:07:35,080 A guard came and grabbed your arm just for nothing? 72 00:07:35,163 --> 00:07:37,123 Yeah. He said I'd missed a lot trains. 73 00:07:37,207 --> 00:07:40,501 Oh, you might as well talk to the wall as talk to her. 74 00:07:45,256 --> 00:07:48,926 Well, what happened after the guard took you to the policeman? 75 00:07:49,010 --> 00:07:51,804 He said I… he thought I was a bit distressed. 76 00:07:52,847 --> 00:07:54,870 A bit distressed? But what were you dis­tressed over? 77 00:07:54,890 --> 00:07:55,725 What was the matter with you? 78 00:07:55,808 --> 00:07:57,477 I didn't do anything. 79 00:07:57,560 --> 00:07:59,854 No one said you did do anything. 80 00:07:59,937 --> 00:08:01,522 They're only trying to help you. 81 00:08:01,606 --> 00:08:04,442 - Oh, my god almighty. - You can't… 82 00:08:05,318 --> 00:08:07,217 It's not your boyfriend that's upsetting you, is it? 83 00:08:07,237 --> 00:08:10,365 Oh, Mum. It's got nothing to do with Tim, has it. 84 00:08:10,448 --> 00:08:13,034 We're not trying to get at you. We're trying to help. 85 00:08:13,118 --> 00:08:14,244 And your father is too. 86 00:08:14,327 --> 00:08:16,579 Just think of it on those lines. 87 00:08:17,747 --> 00:08:22,127 Other than that, I can't think what we're going to do for you. 88 00:08:22,210 --> 00:08:25,213 I'm only your father. I'm supposed to know nothing. 89 00:08:25,296 --> 00:08:28,174 I've never been around the world. I'm just an idiot. 90 00:08:28,258 --> 00:08:32,220 And you're tell… trying to tell me that, he's good for you, this bloke. 91 00:08:32,303 --> 00:08:35,056 Well, don't just sit there like an idiot. 92 00:08:35,140 --> 00:08:36,807 Talk to us, tell us something. 93 00:08:37,975 --> 00:08:40,686 What have you got to say about him, Janice? 94 00:08:40,770 --> 00:08:44,774 - This good-looking, big student of yours? - Talk to your father, come on. 95 00:08:44,857 --> 00:08:47,402 That little thing needs dusting, you know. 96 00:08:50,738 --> 00:08:52,948 That China vase thing. 97 00:08:56,744 --> 00:08:58,037 What did she say then? 98 00:08:59,497 --> 00:09:02,208 I think you ought to see a doctor, don't you, Janice? 99 00:09:02,292 --> 00:09:04,460 No. I'm all right. 100 00:09:04,544 --> 00:09:06,337 Janice. Janice. 101 00:09:11,008 --> 00:09:13,511 I don't know what's going to happen now, I'm sure. 102 00:09:15,138 --> 00:09:18,641 Come in, Mrs. Bailden. Let me have your coat before you sit down. 103 00:09:18,724 --> 00:09:20,310 I like to have these, talks 104 00:09:20,393 --> 00:09:22,812 with the immediate family of people in this ward. 105 00:09:22,895 --> 00:09:25,440 That's why I asked you and your husband to come. 106 00:09:25,523 --> 00:09:30,486 Yes, well, of course it's the parents they always blame first, eh, these days? 107 00:09:30,570 --> 00:09:32,071 They? 108 00:09:32,155 --> 00:09:34,907 Well. I read the papers, and 109 00:09:34,990 --> 00:09:37,660 young people, and in the court. 110 00:09:37,743 --> 00:09:39,120 Well, we're not in court. 111 00:09:39,204 --> 00:09:41,247 Well, I didn't say we were. 112 00:09:43,416 --> 00:09:46,252 But I do want to do the best I can for Janice, 113 00:09:46,336 --> 00:09:48,504 because I'm quite certain, 114 00:09:48,588 --> 00:09:52,133 that she isn't responsible for herself, poor child. 115 00:09:52,883 --> 00:09:56,804 Well, perhaps you could tell me something about her when she was smaller. 116 00:09:56,887 --> 00:09:59,640 Well, this is the thing that baffles me, doctor, um. 117 00:09:59,724 --> 00:10:02,727 She really was quite a model child. She was tidy. 118 00:10:02,810 --> 00:10:06,397 In fact, I used to go into her bedroom some mornings, and, 119 00:10:06,481 --> 00:10:11,152 it… it was so tidy it really didn't look as if anyone had been in there. 120 00:10:11,236 --> 00:10:12,278 And she… 121 00:10:12,362 --> 00:10:15,990 when she laid the table, oh, everything had to be just precise 122 00:10:16,073 --> 00:10:18,534 and she was this type of girl. 123 00:10:20,495 --> 00:10:24,749 And I often used to say to her or give her a little reward and say, 124 00:10:24,832 --> 00:10:27,502 "Oh, there's Mum's Janice, that's for being like Mum." 125 00:10:27,585 --> 00:10:29,712 Because that's the way I was brought up, you know. 126 00:10:31,046 --> 00:10:32,423 Would you like a cup of tea, Mike? 127 00:10:32,507 --> 00:10:34,133 Um, just, yeah. 128 00:10:34,217 --> 00:10:36,761 - Mrs. Bailden. Would you like some tea? - Yes, I would. 129 00:10:36,844 --> 00:10:39,054 - Thank you. - Yes, thanks very much. 130 00:10:39,138 --> 00:10:40,139 Thank you. 131 00:10:41,557 --> 00:10:42,683 Thank you, Cathy. 132 00:10:49,148 --> 00:10:50,691 - You see. - Would you like some? 133 00:10:50,775 --> 00:10:52,193 No, thank you. 134 00:10:52,277 --> 00:10:55,238 How much respect should these children show you? 135 00:10:55,321 --> 00:10:57,823 I've just noticed now your assistant just came in here 136 00:10:57,907 --> 00:10:59,909 and called you by your Christian name. 137 00:10:59,992 --> 00:11:03,454 You see, this is the sort of thing that's happening nowadays. 138 00:11:03,538 --> 00:11:06,791 Um, I feel that a gentleman in your position… 139 00:11:06,874 --> 00:11:10,295 a little respect should be shown to you. 140 00:11:10,378 --> 00:11:14,131 Come in here and treat you just as though you… you're their equal. 141 00:11:14,882 --> 00:11:20,221 The behavior is so, um, foreign to me. I just don't understand it. 142 00:11:20,305 --> 00:11:21,431 Um… 143 00:11:23,308 --> 00:11:26,602 You see them making love in the middle of the pavement. 144 00:11:26,686 --> 00:11:29,980 Well, is this the right place to do this sort of thing? 145 00:11:30,064 --> 00:11:31,357 I wouldn't think so. 146 00:11:31,441 --> 00:11:34,319 Who's making this code of living? 147 00:11:35,403 --> 00:11:39,740 Are we going to be dictated to by these young… the rising generation? 148 00:11:39,824 --> 00:11:43,244 Do you think this is going to be the right way to, tackle this thing? 149 00:11:43,328 --> 00:11:47,957 I mean, have I got to go and do what Janice is doing, for instance? 150 00:11:48,624 --> 00:11:49,709 - I mean. - Not yet. 151 00:11:49,792 --> 00:11:52,753 No, well, there you are. I mean, we're older than they 152 00:11:52,837 --> 00:11:55,881 and I do feel that they've got to take a guide from somewhere. 153 00:11:55,965 --> 00:11:58,759 And where are they going to take it? From each other? 154 00:11:58,843 --> 00:12:03,138 But… so in consequence they've got to show a little bit of respect for their elders. 155 00:12:06,767 --> 00:12:09,228 After all, if we are all going to do just this, 156 00:12:09,312 --> 00:12:11,063 we might as well go back to the jungle. 157 00:12:19,196 --> 00:12:24,535 ♪ Be on my side I'll be on your side, baby ♪ 158 00:12:26,078 --> 00:12:30,416 ♪ There is no reason for you to hide ♪ 159 00:12:33,043 --> 00:12:36,922 ♪ I've been staying here all alone ♪ 160 00:12:39,884 --> 00:12:44,889 ♪ Hoping that you'd take me for a ride ♪ 161 00:12:53,439 --> 00:12:59,445 ♪ She could drag me Over the rainbow ♪ 162 00:12:59,529 --> 00:13:01,781 What I want to know is who? 163 00:13:02,490 --> 00:13:05,284 I suppose it's one of your coffee bar friends, is it? 164 00:13:06,452 --> 00:13:08,829 Well, she doesn't want it. This is for sure. 165 00:13:08,913 --> 00:13:10,415 Who says I don't want it? 166 00:13:10,498 --> 00:13:12,958 Well, you'd be a very stupid child if you did. 167 00:13:13,042 --> 00:13:14,919 Very stupid indeed. 168 00:13:15,002 --> 00:13:17,338 What do we do? Get her an abortion? 169 00:13:17,422 --> 00:13:20,841 And don't mention that word in this house, please, if you don't mind. 170 00:13:22,051 --> 00:13:23,719 It's disgusting. 171 00:13:24,512 --> 00:13:25,971 And unchristian. 172 00:13:26,889 --> 00:13:29,767 You know how I always feel about it. 173 00:13:29,850 --> 00:13:32,895 And the people that do it, they ought to be put away also. 174 00:13:32,978 --> 00:13:34,897 Well, that's that then, isn't it? 175 00:13:36,273 --> 00:13:38,651 The point is, you needn't have it. 176 00:13:39,527 --> 00:13:42,863 Do you realize what effect this is going to have on your whole life? 177 00:13:42,947 --> 00:13:44,990 I'm not going to kill my baby. 178 00:13:45,074 --> 00:13:46,701 - Because it's there. - But you... 179 00:13:46,784 --> 00:13:49,412 it's me. I'm not killing it. 180 00:13:49,495 --> 00:13:51,539 And who the hell are you to decide? 181 00:13:51,622 --> 00:13:52,998 Who's going to bring the child up? 182 00:13:53,082 --> 00:13:56,877 Who's going to buy and pay for everything that will be necessary for the child? 183 00:13:56,961 --> 00:13:58,546 Have you realized this? 184 00:13:58,629 --> 00:14:00,798 You can't even keep yourself, child. 185 00:14:00,881 --> 00:14:02,341 Without another person. 186 00:14:02,425 --> 00:14:03,864 - I'll manage. - Is this going to be kind? 187 00:14:03,884 --> 00:14:05,219 - I'll manage. - You'll manage? 188 00:14:05,302 --> 00:14:08,013 And how do you think you're going to manage? 189 00:14:08,097 --> 00:14:10,683 You've just no idea what it all means. 190 00:14:10,766 --> 00:14:13,060 And if you're going to, be sensible, 191 00:14:13,143 --> 00:14:17,398 you'll take our advice and do what we know and feel is best for you. 192 00:14:17,482 --> 00:14:18,649 You say you want it. 193 00:14:18,733 --> 00:14:21,569 I say you don't want it and I know what's… what's good for you. 194 00:14:21,652 --> 00:14:24,405 Anybody would think you were inside my head or something. 195 00:14:24,489 --> 00:14:27,241 Yes, well, maybe I am. 196 00:14:27,324 --> 00:14:29,785 Maybe I… I've got… You're more part of me, 197 00:14:29,869 --> 00:14:32,246 than anyone else in the world. You know this, don't you? 198 00:14:32,329 --> 00:14:33,706 - And so's my baby. - And probably… 199 00:14:34,289 --> 00:14:38,127 How do you think we're going to be, to see you walking about in that position? 200 00:14:38,210 --> 00:14:40,755 - I'll go away. Don't worry... - Oh, yes, that'll be very nice. 201 00:14:40,838 --> 00:14:44,174 That's marvelous, isn't it? We've brought you up all these years, 202 00:14:44,258 --> 00:14:46,260 and you can walk out of the house just like that. 203 00:14:46,886 --> 00:14:49,472 For just being, a stupid child. 204 00:14:50,264 --> 00:14:52,224 I mean who says I'm in the wrong, anyway? 205 00:14:52,307 --> 00:14:53,768 That's it. 206 00:14:53,851 --> 00:14:55,352 You're the one, 207 00:14:55,436 --> 00:14:57,938 to say whether you're in the wrong or not. 208 00:14:58,022 --> 00:15:00,775 This is the most important thing you have got to decide. 209 00:15:00,858 --> 00:15:02,777 And it's got to be what you want. 210 00:15:03,360 --> 00:15:07,615 You see, I wonder sometimes whether you do know. You say one thing, 211 00:15:07,698 --> 00:15:09,950 and I know different. It isn't what you want. 212 00:15:10,034 --> 00:15:12,411 You say you want it, but I know better than that. 213 00:15:12,995 --> 00:15:16,165 You're my daughter and I know exactly what you want. 214 00:15:19,710 --> 00:15:21,170 It's just that, um… 215 00:15:22,672 --> 00:15:24,674 I really like kids and… 216 00:15:24,757 --> 00:15:27,927 well, I know it's the wrong way to go about it, 217 00:15:28,636 --> 00:15:29,845 but I mean, it's… 218 00:15:30,805 --> 00:15:32,682 it's there, ain't it? 219 00:15:32,765 --> 00:15:35,518 I could bloody well kill you. 220 00:15:37,144 --> 00:15:41,566 Do you see how you've upset your father, and me? 221 00:15:41,649 --> 00:15:43,901 Haven't we always done the best we can for you? 222 00:15:43,984 --> 00:15:47,863 And tried to guide you, in the way you should go? 223 00:15:47,947 --> 00:15:50,157 Haven't we? Have we failed? 224 00:15:50,240 --> 00:15:52,117 I didn't say you hadn't. 225 00:15:54,954 --> 00:15:58,457 You see, you're… you contradict yourself all the time. 226 00:15:59,166 --> 00:16:01,961 - I am confused. - You are confused, dear. 227 00:16:02,044 --> 00:16:04,964 And we'll try to… to help you and, 228 00:16:05,047 --> 00:16:07,007 and you know we love you. 229 00:16:07,091 --> 00:16:08,634 - Don't you? - I'm sorry. 230 00:16:09,969 --> 00:16:11,762 Never mind. Never mind. 231 00:17:21,582 --> 00:17:22,792 Um. 232 00:17:23,333 --> 00:17:26,170 It's very good of you to come along and see me. 233 00:17:26,253 --> 00:17:29,298 Oh, it's, uh, no bother. I was up anyway. 234 00:17:29,381 --> 00:17:31,050 No bother at all. 235 00:17:31,884 --> 00:17:33,177 Mind, um, 236 00:17:34,428 --> 00:17:37,014 mind you, I don't think the wife likes me coming here. 237 00:17:37,097 --> 00:17:37,932 Why's that do you think? 238 00:17:38,015 --> 00:17:40,851 Well, I don't think she likes me to come on my own, you know. 239 00:17:40,935 --> 00:17:42,561 Oh? Why not? 240 00:17:42,645 --> 00:17:43,938 Oh, well… 241 00:17:44,479 --> 00:17:46,691 Don't get me wrong, she's a good woman, Vera. 242 00:17:46,774 --> 00:17:50,653 Um, well, truthfully, that's why I've come. I mean, 243 00:17:51,445 --> 00:17:55,866 she, she's doted on this, girl of ours, and, um, 244 00:17:55,950 --> 00:17:58,828 I used to tell her, I used to say to her when Janice… 245 00:17:58,911 --> 00:18:00,412 she was getting a bit older, 246 00:18:00,495 --> 00:18:02,081 "You should be more selfish." 247 00:18:02,164 --> 00:18:05,334 You know, the way you, talk to your wife, and, um, 248 00:18:05,417 --> 00:18:08,587 I used to say to her, "You should get out a bit more." 249 00:18:10,214 --> 00:18:12,842 How have you always got on with Janice, Mr. Bailden? 250 00:18:12,925 --> 00:18:16,303 I wasn't allowed to, was I? 251 00:18:16,386 --> 00:18:18,555 Not in on it, you might say. 252 00:18:19,473 --> 00:18:21,266 I don't follow. 253 00:18:21,976 --> 00:18:23,811 Well, I always thought that, uh, 254 00:18:23,894 --> 00:18:26,981 Vera came, between me and Janice. 255 00:18:27,064 --> 00:18:28,649 Sort of prevented you? 256 00:18:28,733 --> 00:18:30,317 No, she'd… 257 00:18:31,026 --> 00:18:33,487 Vera wouldn't prevent nobody doing nothing. 258 00:18:33,570 --> 00:18:36,573 But when Janice was, a tiny tot, you know, I, 259 00:18:37,157 --> 00:18:38,659 we used to have bags of fun together. 260 00:18:38,743 --> 00:18:41,620 When she… when she was very small, but… 261 00:18:42,496 --> 00:18:45,624 somehow I don't think Mrs. Bailden liked this. 262 00:18:45,708 --> 00:18:46,959 Why not? 263 00:18:47,626 --> 00:18:49,837 Well. Why not? 264 00:18:50,420 --> 00:18:52,256 Well, frankly, um, 265 00:18:52,840 --> 00:18:55,530 I… I don't know whether you know, I came down from the North to work here. 266 00:18:55,550 --> 00:18:57,845 There was no work up there, and, 267 00:18:57,928 --> 00:19:00,347 when I met her, she had her own business. 268 00:19:00,430 --> 00:19:02,892 And, uh, I don't think they wanted me to marry her. 269 00:19:02,975 --> 00:19:05,227 They thought I was after the business probably. 270 00:19:05,811 --> 00:19:07,688 Mmh. Do you smoke? 271 00:19:07,772 --> 00:19:09,148 Uh, yes, thanks. 272 00:19:10,565 --> 00:19:12,651 Thought you blokes didn't approve of this? 273 00:19:13,652 --> 00:19:15,029 Have one anyway. 274 00:19:15,112 --> 00:19:16,280 Um. 275 00:19:16,363 --> 00:19:19,616 Perhaps you could tell me something about Janice when she was small. 276 00:19:19,700 --> 00:19:21,618 - Right from the start. - Thank you. 277 00:19:23,453 --> 00:19:24,747 Yes, she was… 278 00:19:25,664 --> 00:19:28,333 a very happy child. There was never any, 279 00:19:28,417 --> 00:19:32,087 unhappiness and there was never any naughtiness with her. 280 00:19:32,171 --> 00:19:34,506 In fact, I'll go as far as to say in those days, 281 00:19:34,589 --> 00:19:36,967 it was Janice that kept us together. 282 00:19:37,051 --> 00:19:39,053 Did you need to be kept together? 283 00:19:40,846 --> 00:19:42,264 Well, uh, 284 00:19:42,347 --> 00:19:44,683 you know, when you're first married and you're, 285 00:19:44,767 --> 00:19:46,769 you're sort of adjusting to one another, and, 286 00:19:46,852 --> 00:19:49,814 I suppose this is the way it goes in marriage. 287 00:19:49,897 --> 00:19:53,442 What about the, sexual relation between you and your wife? 288 00:19:55,152 --> 00:19:56,570 Well, she's… 289 00:19:57,446 --> 00:20:00,615 I can't grumble really because she's, she's been a good mother, and 290 00:20:00,699 --> 00:20:03,243 she's looked after the children and the house, and… 291 00:20:03,327 --> 00:20:05,370 Yeah, but I mean the sexual side. 292 00:20:06,997 --> 00:20:08,165 Well… 293 00:20:09,875 --> 00:20:11,626 She… she's not like that, 294 00:20:11,710 --> 00:20:14,504 really, Vera. I mean, um, 295 00:20:14,588 --> 00:20:16,548 she had a good upbringing, and… 296 00:20:18,342 --> 00:20:20,302 she's… she's funny about it, really. 297 00:20:20,385 --> 00:20:23,680 When I say funny, I suppose, I don't know, 298 00:20:23,764 --> 00:20:27,517 If I'm standing there and I've had a bath or something, she… 299 00:20:27,601 --> 00:20:29,708 tells me to get covered up and things like this, you know, aft… 300 00:20:29,728 --> 00:20:31,856 Even after all these years and… 301 00:20:33,148 --> 00:20:35,609 But she's always taught the girls, 302 00:20:35,692 --> 00:20:39,363 right from wrong, I think, in these matters, you know, about… 303 00:20:40,447 --> 00:20:41,740 men and… 304 00:20:43,033 --> 00:20:45,786 Well, you know the way women talk to daughters and… 305 00:20:47,037 --> 00:20:51,416 What about the… actual sexual relation be­tween you and her though? 306 00:20:54,294 --> 00:20:55,420 Well… 307 00:20:57,756 --> 00:21:01,343 I suppose it's… fairly normal. 308 00:21:02,803 --> 00:21:03,971 Um. 309 00:21:05,639 --> 00:21:08,893 Well, we've… we've had two children, haven't we, and… 310 00:21:11,436 --> 00:21:15,357 But I mean, do you, do you find it, uh, satisfying? 311 00:21:17,567 --> 00:21:18,903 Well. 312 00:21:18,986 --> 00:21:23,073 Well, frankly, I… I don't know what this has got to do with, uh, 313 00:21:23,157 --> 00:21:24,699 Janice being sick. 314 00:21:25,868 --> 00:21:28,620 I mean, my relations with, with Vera. 315 00:21:29,371 --> 00:21:32,958 I mean, she's a good woman. I… I can't fault Vera. 316 00:21:34,084 --> 00:21:36,921 Well, not really, she's… 317 00:21:38,672 --> 00:21:39,673 Well. 318 00:21:42,217 --> 00:21:44,719 Probably at times I could have, um… 319 00:21:46,721 --> 00:21:49,934 She could have done better. I… I don't know how to put it, but… 320 00:21:52,602 --> 00:21:55,772 Yeah, I suppose lots of married women are like this, aren't they? 321 00:21:58,567 --> 00:21:59,985 She, um… 322 00:22:01,695 --> 00:22:05,449 Well, shall I say she's probably done her duty in that line. 323 00:22:07,617 --> 00:22:08,827 But… 324 00:22:11,914 --> 00:22:14,083 You learn to live with these things, don't you? 325 00:23:18,688 --> 00:23:20,774 I thought you'd disappeared. 326 00:23:22,985 --> 00:23:24,153 I've been ill. 327 00:23:24,236 --> 00:23:26,155 Ill? Why? What's been the matter? 328 00:23:26,238 --> 00:23:27,447 Nothing much. 329 00:23:27,531 --> 00:23:29,491 What do you mean, nothing much? 330 00:23:32,995 --> 00:23:34,704 I'm better now. 331 00:23:34,788 --> 00:23:36,415 Are you? 332 00:23:38,875 --> 00:23:41,878 - Tea? Coffee? - Tea, please. 333 00:23:46,091 --> 00:23:47,551 So you're not working then? 334 00:23:53,765 --> 00:23:56,393 What does the old bat think about that then, eh? 335 00:24:01,315 --> 00:24:03,400 See anything of Tony then, lately? 336 00:24:15,287 --> 00:24:17,581 Do you know my mother's trying to kill me? 337 00:24:23,795 --> 00:24:25,047 What do you mean, Jan? 338 00:24:26,923 --> 00:24:28,133 She is. 339 00:24:29,884 --> 00:24:31,470 She killed my baby. 340 00:24:32,929 --> 00:24:34,411 Your baby? What are you talking about? 341 00:24:34,431 --> 00:24:35,432 Son. 342 00:24:36,725 --> 00:24:38,227 What baby? 343 00:24:38,310 --> 00:24:39,686 My son. 344 00:24:42,481 --> 00:24:44,816 What's the matter, Jan? What are you talking about? 345 00:24:47,069 --> 00:24:48,320 You sit down. 346 00:24:49,613 --> 00:24:51,698 What do you mean, your mother's trying to kill you? 347 00:24:56,995 --> 00:24:57,996 She… 348 00:24:58,830 --> 00:25:01,083 she made me go to this hospital. 349 00:25:04,169 --> 00:25:06,046 She is trying to kill me. 350 00:25:06,130 --> 00:25:07,464 Come along. 351 00:25:13,220 --> 00:25:15,222 What makes you think that, Jan? 352 00:25:21,728 --> 00:25:22,729 She… 353 00:25:23,772 --> 00:25:27,025 She cut out my baby because it was bad. 354 00:25:28,693 --> 00:25:29,778 And, now… 355 00:25:31,446 --> 00:25:33,573 And I am young, bad too. 356 00:25:35,117 --> 00:25:37,077 Why are you bad? 357 00:25:37,161 --> 00:25:39,246 What's bad? What do you mean? 358 00:25:40,997 --> 00:25:44,918 Because… because I'm always in trouble, all the time. 359 00:25:45,960 --> 00:25:47,254 And I… 360 00:25:48,713 --> 00:25:51,633 Every­thing I do, I'm in trouble. 361 00:25:51,716 --> 00:25:53,843 And that's bad, isn't it? 362 00:25:54,678 --> 00:25:58,140 - She is going to kill me. - She's not going to kill you. 363 00:25:59,474 --> 00:26:03,228 Get yourself in a state, don't you? Eh? 364 00:26:07,649 --> 00:26:09,234 Have some tea, eh? 365 00:26:09,318 --> 00:26:11,278 Feel a bit better. 366 00:26:11,361 --> 00:26:12,737 I'll get you some tea. 367 00:26:22,706 --> 00:26:24,499 Do you think I'm mental? 368 00:26:26,126 --> 00:26:28,128 I don't know what being mental means. 369 00:26:29,296 --> 00:26:31,298 Well, peculiar then. 370 00:26:32,216 --> 00:26:33,613 Well, I suppose you're a bit peculiar. 371 00:26:33,633 --> 00:26:35,802 I mean, everybody's a bit peculiar, aren't they? 372 00:26:37,179 --> 00:26:39,473 I don't know, I never really thought about it. 373 00:26:41,433 --> 00:26:42,809 Well, why don't you leave home? 374 00:26:44,102 --> 00:26:45,937 Oh, I can't. 375 00:26:46,020 --> 00:26:47,564 What do you mean, you can't? 376 00:26:48,523 --> 00:26:51,735 Well, I can't. It would upset my mother and… 377 00:26:51,818 --> 00:26:53,403 Well, is that a bad thing? 378 00:26:54,571 --> 00:26:58,074 You see, Tim, when, when it comes to making a decision, like, 379 00:26:58,158 --> 00:27:01,495 you know, a big one, about like leaving home or something, 380 00:27:03,247 --> 00:27:05,457 it feels sort of… 381 00:27:05,540 --> 00:27:07,083 It just doesn't feel real, you know. 382 00:27:07,167 --> 00:27:10,420 I don't feel there's a me that I can choose for. 383 00:27:11,087 --> 00:27:12,922 And it… Thank you. 384 00:27:13,590 --> 00:27:15,550 It wouldn't get me anywhere, you see. 385 00:27:15,634 --> 00:27:18,157 It would get you away from your family for a start, wouldn't it? 386 00:27:18,178 --> 00:27:20,096 And why is that so important? 387 00:27:20,180 --> 00:27:22,807 Well, I mean, there's nothing to keep you there, is there? 388 00:27:23,892 --> 00:27:25,602 I mean, you can go, can't you? 389 00:27:25,685 --> 00:27:29,231 I mean, if you want to walk out that door, you can, you can walk out. 390 00:27:30,940 --> 00:27:34,361 It's just so much easier, though, to do what she wants, you know. 391 00:27:58,134 --> 00:28:01,388 What's the meaning of this? Coming home this time in the morning. 392 00:28:01,471 --> 00:28:04,224 Waking up the whole neighborhood with that wretched machine. 393 00:28:04,308 --> 00:28:08,645 When you've, been out this length of time, you can damn well stop now. 394 00:28:09,604 --> 00:28:10,605 Jan. 395 00:28:12,482 --> 00:28:13,483 What's up? 396 00:28:14,526 --> 00:28:15,985 She won't let me in. 397 00:28:51,187 --> 00:28:53,147 Janice. Are you there? 398 00:29:00,280 --> 00:29:02,240 Looks like she's gone. 399 00:29:05,285 --> 00:29:07,036 It was Friday, wasn't it? 400 00:29:07,120 --> 00:29:08,997 No, wait a minute, it was Saturday because 401 00:29:09,080 --> 00:29:10,915 I always used to say, well, um, 402 00:29:10,999 --> 00:29:13,960 "It's Sunday tomorrow so you can stay out a bit later to­night." 403 00:29:14,043 --> 00:29:15,879 "You haven't got to get up in the morning." 404 00:29:15,962 --> 00:29:17,506 She was out of work anyway. 405 00:29:17,589 --> 00:29:19,924 Well, I had no intention of locking her out. 406 00:29:20,008 --> 00:29:21,510 But she didn't have a key. 407 00:29:21,593 --> 00:29:25,597 Well, I must admit I wanted to give her a bit of a fright. Shake her up a bit. 408 00:29:25,680 --> 00:29:27,807 Because, after all, how did we know where she'd been? 409 00:29:27,891 --> 00:29:29,351 Did you ask her? 410 00:29:29,434 --> 00:29:33,146 Did I get the chance? Before I could get down stairs, she was away. 411 00:29:33,229 --> 00:29:35,357 In a temper, I've no doubt. 412 00:29:35,440 --> 00:29:38,192 I tell you what. Your mother wouldn't have stood for it, Vera. 413 00:29:38,276 --> 00:29:40,320 Well, we're living in another world. 414 00:29:40,404 --> 00:29:41,696 Times have changed. 415 00:29:42,280 --> 00:29:45,158 Children are more free today. Um, 416 00:29:45,241 --> 00:29:50,288 what's more, they sort of expect it and I suppose, 417 00:29:50,372 --> 00:29:52,206 they deserve it. I don't know. 418 00:29:52,290 --> 00:29:54,626 This is how the world is today, isn't it? 419 00:30:29,411 --> 00:30:30,787 Mum, I'm sorry. 420 00:30:30,870 --> 00:30:32,997 Janice is late down this morning. 421 00:30:35,417 --> 00:30:37,836 Seems to please herself nowadays, doesn't she? 422 00:30:40,464 --> 00:30:44,468 Don't… Stop bloody ignoring me. I'm here right in front of you. 423 00:30:44,551 --> 00:30:45,802 Weren't last night, were you? 424 00:30:45,885 --> 00:30:47,679 I'm fucking standing here now, aren't I? 425 00:30:47,762 --> 00:30:48,763 Hey, hey, hey. 426 00:30:48,847 --> 00:30:51,933 You'll just cut that out. If you want anything to eat, get it. 427 00:30:52,016 --> 00:30:54,394 Now. And if you don't want it, do without. 428 00:30:54,478 --> 00:30:56,312 We've not had a wink of sleep all night, 429 00:30:56,396 --> 00:30:59,566 wondering where you were. And look at you. 430 00:30:59,649 --> 00:31:01,411 - I begin to wonder whether... - Please, Mum. 431 00:31:01,443 --> 00:31:03,903 And don't be just standing there, 432 00:31:03,987 --> 00:31:05,113 looking stupid. 433 00:31:05,196 --> 00:31:06,678 - …ashamed of yourself. - She locked me out. 434 00:31:06,698 --> 00:31:09,075 Who's she? She never locked you out. 435 00:31:09,158 --> 00:31:10,452 - She bloody did. - I did not. 436 00:31:10,535 --> 00:31:11,808 It must have suited you to go away. 437 00:31:11,828 --> 00:31:13,184 I was coming down to open that door 438 00:31:13,204 --> 00:31:16,249 and you were away as fast as you could jolly well get. 439 00:31:16,332 --> 00:31:19,293 In fact, your father and I have decided you'll have to see a doctor. 440 00:31:19,377 --> 00:31:21,505 There's something obviously going wrong with you. 441 00:31:21,588 --> 00:31:23,297 What? You cut my baby out. 442 00:31:23,381 --> 00:31:25,049 Hey, hey, hey, hey! Put that knife down. 443 00:31:25,133 --> 00:31:28,637 If anybody's, killing anybody or upsetting anybody, 444 00:31:28,720 --> 00:31:30,054 it's you that's upsetting me. 445 00:31:30,138 --> 00:31:32,390 Janice, look nobody's going to touch you, love. 446 00:31:32,474 --> 00:31:33,475 I just don't know. 447 00:31:33,558 --> 00:31:35,351 Put the knife down. Give it to me. 448 00:31:35,435 --> 00:31:36,436 Give me the knife. 449 00:31:36,520 --> 00:31:38,021 - She did. - Give me that knife. 450 00:31:38,104 --> 00:31:39,022 Put it down. 451 00:31:39,105 --> 00:31:40,023 Do as your father tells you. 452 00:31:40,106 --> 00:31:42,150 You bloody bitch, you. 453 00:31:42,233 --> 00:31:44,611 This is just about the lot. I've had enough of you. 454 00:31:45,319 --> 00:31:47,489 Bitch, you're just stupid… 455 00:31:47,572 --> 00:31:49,741 - Sit still. - Leave me. 456 00:31:49,824 --> 00:31:51,951 It's not a bloody doctor she wants. It's the police, 457 00:31:52,035 --> 00:31:53,787 and I'm fed up with the lot of it. 458 00:31:57,206 --> 00:31:59,292 You are a wicked girl, Janice. 459 00:31:59,375 --> 00:32:03,922 You've done this to our household. You've upset everybody, yourself. 460 00:32:04,005 --> 00:32:05,465 You're so wicked. You really are. 461 00:32:05,549 --> 00:32:08,217 - I'm not. - You are. 462 00:32:08,301 --> 00:32:12,138 No self-respecting person would behave the way you have. 463 00:32:14,474 --> 00:32:16,075 Do you know where you've been all night? 464 00:32:16,142 --> 00:32:18,352 I don't suppose you do, by the look of you. 465 00:32:18,436 --> 00:32:19,979 Do you know where you've been? 466 00:32:20,063 --> 00:32:21,439 Who… who were you with? 467 00:32:21,523 --> 00:32:24,859 They must have been terrible people. Look at you. 468 00:32:24,943 --> 00:32:27,153 You look as if you've been dragged through the gutter. 469 00:32:28,029 --> 00:32:31,032 I just don't know what's going to happen, I really don't. 470 00:32:32,158 --> 00:32:35,579 You'd better alter your ways and very, very quickly. 471 00:32:35,662 --> 00:32:39,123 There must be something wrong with you, child. There must be. 472 00:32:41,835 --> 00:32:43,252 I just don't know. 473 00:32:44,128 --> 00:32:46,840 Sending me out of my mind, you really are. 474 00:33:00,311 --> 00:33:01,730 - Excuse me. - Yes. 475 00:33:01,813 --> 00:33:06,818 Good morning. I'm bringing my daughter to Dr. Donaldson's ward. 476 00:33:06,901 --> 00:33:08,111 Could you tell me where it is? 477 00:33:08,194 --> 00:33:11,823 Yes. If you go down this corridor, turn 478 00:33:11,906 --> 00:33:15,118 into the first corridor on the right, right to the very end. 479 00:33:15,201 --> 00:33:17,746 - Turn right again… - Not bad in here. 480 00:33:48,652 --> 00:33:49,861 - Are we right? - Yes. 481 00:33:49,944 --> 00:33:53,031 I'm Mrs. Bailden and this is, uh, Janice. 482 00:33:53,114 --> 00:33:56,034 - Morning. - Would you come this way, please? 483 00:33:59,788 --> 00:34:01,247 If you just wait there a moment. 484 00:34:19,891 --> 00:34:21,475 - Good morning, doctor. - Hello. 485 00:34:21,559 --> 00:34:25,980 I'm Mrs. Bailden and this is, uh, Janice, my daughter. 486 00:34:26,064 --> 00:34:27,857 - Hello. - Morning. 487 00:34:29,984 --> 00:34:32,361 So, have a seat here, shall we? 488 00:34:41,537 --> 00:34:44,958 I won't even introduce you to everybody because, uh… 489 00:34:46,042 --> 00:34:48,502 Is this the, um, is this the ward? 490 00:34:48,586 --> 00:34:49,629 Yeah. 491 00:34:49,713 --> 00:34:52,423 I wasn't expecting to see anything just quite like this. 492 00:34:52,506 --> 00:34:57,971 It's not, sort of, the usual run of a hospital ward, is it? 493 00:34:58,054 --> 00:35:00,807 Hmm. Do you mind that, Janice? 494 00:35:00,890 --> 00:35:03,476 - Sorry? - Do you mind us not being like a… 495 00:35:05,729 --> 00:35:06,771 usual ward? 496 00:35:07,689 --> 00:35:09,357 I don't really care. 497 00:35:10,859 --> 00:35:12,861 That's the attitude of the young. 498 00:35:12,944 --> 00:35:15,614 - It's the attitude. - Well, I don't really care. 499 00:35:15,697 --> 00:35:17,323 Well, you've got to care because... 500 00:35:17,406 --> 00:35:19,868 No, it's all right, you know. It, I mean… 501 00:35:19,951 --> 00:35:22,036 - It's okay. It's okay. - It doesn't matter. No. 502 00:35:22,787 --> 00:35:26,958 - Dr. Gibbs. He's your GP. - Oh. Yes, that's right. 503 00:35:27,041 --> 00:35:30,419 Um. He didn't explain this to you? 504 00:35:30,503 --> 00:35:34,257 Um, not really, not in detail. You know, I mean, 505 00:35:34,340 --> 00:35:37,385 he did more or less give me the details of what was happening, you know. 506 00:35:37,468 --> 00:35:40,346 Well, he thought that, uh, this would be 507 00:35:40,429 --> 00:35:43,307 the right place for Janice to come to. 508 00:35:43,391 --> 00:35:48,062 Um, and we don't, um, give physical treatments here. 509 00:35:48,146 --> 00:35:50,064 No pills or… 510 00:35:50,148 --> 00:35:53,192 This is what, I mean, this is why it's not like an ordinary hospital. 511 00:35:53,276 --> 00:35:55,820 They're not sedated or, you know, tranquilized in any way? 512 00:35:55,904 --> 00:35:57,196 Very, very rarely. 513 00:35:57,280 --> 00:35:59,282 Hmm. Yes. 514 00:35:59,365 --> 00:36:01,785 - What about discipline here? - …look so miserable. 515 00:36:01,868 --> 00:36:04,203 What… what about the discipline, doctor? 516 00:36:04,287 --> 00:36:05,538 I mean… 517 00:36:05,621 --> 00:36:11,294 Well, I mean, do they seem like, uh, an undisciplined lot to you? 518 00:36:11,377 --> 00:36:13,046 No, but, um… 519 00:36:14,255 --> 00:36:17,341 How do you teach them right from wrong? 520 00:36:17,425 --> 00:36:20,094 You know, right from wrong, sort of thing? 521 00:36:20,887 --> 00:36:23,556 You know, I mean, people have different standards. 522 00:36:23,639 --> 00:36:25,371 Personal standards, about this sort of thing. 523 00:36:25,391 --> 00:36:29,187 Hmm. They are, you know, as far as them sleeping, 524 00:36:29,270 --> 00:36:30,626 you know what happens about that, I mean... 525 00:36:30,646 --> 00:36:33,566 Oh, well, the, the, the… 526 00:36:33,649 --> 00:36:36,778 male patients have one dormitory and the female patients 527 00:36:36,861 --> 00:36:39,010 - have another dormitory. - Oh, they do, I just wondered you know. 528 00:36:39,030 --> 00:36:40,489 Perhaps you'd better meet with… 529 00:36:40,573 --> 00:36:42,826 Um, Brent. 530 00:36:42,909 --> 00:36:45,578 Could you come and meet Mr. and Mrs. Bailden, 531 00:36:45,661 --> 00:36:46,788 they're a bit worried about… 532 00:36:46,871 --> 00:36:48,497 - Hello. - How are you? 533 00:36:48,581 --> 00:36:50,917 - I'm all right and you? - Doing good. I'm all right. 534 00:36:51,000 --> 00:36:52,752 Good, that's fine. 535 00:36:52,836 --> 00:36:54,253 How long have you been here? 536 00:36:54,337 --> 00:36:56,339 Er, 43 years. 537 00:36:56,422 --> 00:36:58,382 Heavens, now that seems a life time. 538 00:36:58,466 --> 00:36:59,342 No, no, I've been here about six months. 539 00:36:59,425 --> 00:37:01,385 It seems like 43 years, does it? 540 00:37:01,469 --> 00:37:03,637 Well, that happens to us all when we're, 541 00:37:03,721 --> 00:37:05,849 you know, not doing perhaps the things we want to do. 542 00:37:05,932 --> 00:37:08,642 This is Jan and I hope you're going to look after her for me. 543 00:37:08,726 --> 00:37:10,583 - Will you? Help to make her better. - Yeah, sure. 544 00:37:10,603 --> 00:37:12,146 - Will you help her? - Yes. 545 00:37:12,230 --> 00:37:13,689 I'm sure you will. 546 00:37:13,773 --> 00:37:16,484 Look a bit cheerful, Jan, for heaven's sake. 547 00:37:16,567 --> 00:37:18,569 Perhaps it'll help you too if you get friendly. 548 00:37:18,652 --> 00:37:19,946 This'll be nice, won't it? 549 00:37:20,029 --> 00:37:23,407 Help each other. That'll be lovely, eh? 550 00:37:24,158 --> 00:37:25,869 - I don't really know. - Come on. 551 00:37:28,037 --> 00:37:29,789 - Bye-bye, dear. - Bye mum. 552 00:37:29,873 --> 00:37:31,020 And do as you're told, won't you? 553 00:37:31,040 --> 00:37:32,250 - And be a good girl. - Yeah. 554 00:37:32,333 --> 00:37:34,878 And come back nice and well for me. All right? 555 00:37:34,961 --> 00:37:37,088 - Cheerio, love. - Goodbye, Dad. 556 00:37:39,173 --> 00:37:40,383 Come this way. 557 00:37:57,275 --> 00:37:58,651 What's she doing? 558 00:37:59,693 --> 00:38:00,694 Sleeping. 559 00:38:11,122 --> 00:38:13,082 What do you think about 560 00:38:13,749 --> 00:38:18,087 the meaning of the word sin? What do you think it means? 561 00:38:20,089 --> 00:38:24,177 Hmm. Well, in my case… 562 00:38:24,260 --> 00:38:28,097 In my case, sin is, is just not hurting other people. 563 00:38:30,099 --> 00:38:31,684 Like I did before. 564 00:38:33,269 --> 00:38:36,772 And, what about when other people hurt you? 565 00:38:38,274 --> 00:38:40,234 Well, they don't. 566 00:38:40,318 --> 00:38:41,819 They don't? 567 00:38:41,903 --> 00:38:44,864 Not… Maybe I've been extra lucky, you know, but… 568 00:38:46,615 --> 00:38:48,492 They don't seem to hurt me. 569 00:38:49,285 --> 00:38:51,475 Maybe people have been too lenient with me. I don't know, 570 00:38:51,495 --> 00:38:53,831 but I don't feel that people have hurt me. 571 00:38:54,748 --> 00:38:56,625 Not like I've hurt my parents. 572 00:38:56,709 --> 00:38:58,086 Are you sure? 573 00:39:00,588 --> 00:39:01,630 Yeah. 574 00:39:04,050 --> 00:39:07,345 What about when you, lost your baby? 575 00:39:14,852 --> 00:39:17,730 Well, you said something once about, 576 00:39:17,813 --> 00:39:20,233 feeling there was somebody else inside you. 577 00:39:20,942 --> 00:39:22,110 Yeah, right. 578 00:39:23,152 --> 00:39:24,320 - I do. - Is that… 579 00:39:24,403 --> 00:39:26,280 Is that the bad one? 580 00:39:28,616 --> 00:39:29,658 Hmm. 581 00:39:33,246 --> 00:39:34,956 Yes, it's… 582 00:39:36,582 --> 00:39:40,544 It's almost like I don't have any sort of control on what I am doing, you know. 583 00:39:41,963 --> 00:39:47,510 But just suppose that this bad side is, a part of yourself? 584 00:39:47,593 --> 00:39:48,594 Yeah. 585 00:39:48,636 --> 00:39:50,138 And… 586 00:39:50,221 --> 00:39:55,268 you don't think, do you, that having to keep it down, all the time, 587 00:39:55,351 --> 00:39:57,937 could be something to do with, 588 00:39:58,021 --> 00:40:00,356 why you feel unreal? 589 00:40:01,440 --> 00:40:05,111 Two RAF Canberra bombers collided in mid-air 590 00:40:05,194 --> 00:40:08,364 over a golf course near Mansfield in Nottinghamshire today. 591 00:40:08,447 --> 00:40:11,075 Their crews bailed out and are in hospital in Mansfield. 592 00:40:11,159 --> 00:40:12,410 Oh, shit! 593 00:40:12,493 --> 00:40:16,414 Wreckage was scattered over a wide area, but there are no... 594 00:40:16,497 --> 00:40:17,873 Hey! 595 00:40:18,457 --> 00:40:19,625 Elton John's on. 596 00:40:19,708 --> 00:40:22,503 Bugger it. We were watching that. 597 00:40:23,171 --> 00:40:25,631 But you said I could watch Elton John. 598 00:40:25,714 --> 00:40:26,715 I don't remember that. 599 00:40:26,799 --> 00:40:28,842 Hey, bugger this. We were watching that. 600 00:40:30,303 --> 00:40:31,595 But it's only the news. 601 00:40:31,679 --> 00:40:35,308 …proceed two Anglo-French Puma helicopters… 602 00:40:35,391 --> 00:40:37,935 But you said I could watch it, all of you. 603 00:40:38,019 --> 00:40:39,645 No, we didn't. We're watching this. 604 00:40:39,728 --> 00:40:43,191 - Sit down. - Sit down now. 605 00:40:43,274 --> 00:40:46,277 No, you bloody said I could watch Elton John. 606 00:40:47,778 --> 00:40:49,010 - Hey, don't touch it. - Here you are. 607 00:40:49,030 --> 00:40:51,199 Come on everybody, now you go and sit down. 608 00:40:51,782 --> 00:40:53,076 It's not as if I didn't ask. 609 00:40:53,159 --> 00:40:55,119 You're all being hypocrites, for god's sake. 610 00:40:55,203 --> 00:40:57,455 - Every one of you. - Pipe down and leave it. 611 00:40:57,538 --> 00:41:00,208 Trying… I won't put anything on. I'll turn the fucking thing off. 612 00:41:00,291 --> 00:41:02,793 Uh! Oh. 613 00:41:02,876 --> 00:41:05,879 You said… 614 00:41:07,590 --> 00:41:10,134 Hey! Hold it! 615 00:41:13,262 --> 00:41:14,097 All right. 616 00:41:14,180 --> 00:41:16,099 They told me I could… 617 00:41:16,182 --> 00:41:18,809 You're just as bad as my bloody mother! 618 00:41:18,892 --> 00:41:20,936 Well, all right, maybe they are, but… 619 00:41:21,020 --> 00:41:25,399 You'll pay for it. I did those rude things. 620 00:41:25,483 --> 00:41:26,525 That's right. 621 00:41:30,904 --> 00:41:32,448 Come and sit down. 622 00:41:32,531 --> 00:41:35,576 That's another kiss. Or shall we make it two? 623 00:41:35,659 --> 00:41:36,494 There's nothing... 624 00:41:36,577 --> 00:41:37,411 Yes, I'll remind you about 625 00:41:37,495 --> 00:41:41,040 blackened hook cherry jam from the Hungarian People's Republic. 626 00:41:41,124 --> 00:41:43,334 Yes. From… there's a city there, called Budapest. 627 00:41:46,795 --> 00:41:48,319 Would you like to come and sit down, David? 628 00:41:48,339 --> 00:41:50,841 Want to come sit down? 629 00:41:55,221 --> 00:41:56,222 Yes. 630 00:41:56,639 --> 00:41:59,975 And they had a little gold coiled serpent 631 00:42:00,059 --> 00:42:01,727 of the Pharaohs. 632 00:42:02,853 --> 00:42:04,938 What's happened to that project? 633 00:42:06,649 --> 00:42:08,651 It was good in 1,500 years… 634 00:42:08,734 --> 00:42:10,528 Before this… 635 00:42:10,611 --> 00:42:13,072 And the University of Cambridge came in with… 636 00:42:13,156 --> 00:42:14,490 And then, what did you do? 637 00:42:14,573 --> 00:42:17,993 They, they…When they say… They, they, yeah, they… 638 00:42:18,077 --> 00:42:20,954 they think I'm, being bad, 639 00:42:21,038 --> 00:42:26,085 and I think I'm being myself. 640 00:42:26,835 --> 00:42:30,005 And they say that myself is crazy and, 641 00:42:30,089 --> 00:42:32,550 and destructive of myself. 642 00:42:34,468 --> 00:42:36,429 Why do you think they say this? 643 00:42:36,512 --> 00:42:37,930 Do you think they believe it? 644 00:42:38,013 --> 00:42:41,392 Because they don't… Because they don't, they don't, 645 00:42:42,185 --> 00:42:44,312 know who I am. 646 00:42:44,395 --> 00:42:46,355 The self… The… 647 00:42:46,439 --> 00:42:49,775 the me that they say I am destroying, 648 00:42:51,068 --> 00:42:52,903 is them. 649 00:42:55,989 --> 00:42:57,825 Do you want to destroy them? 650 00:43:02,955 --> 00:43:05,624 I want to destroy them in me, yes. 651 00:43:06,875 --> 00:43:08,836 I don't want them in me. 652 00:43:09,962 --> 00:43:12,715 I really don't want them in me. 653 00:43:14,758 --> 00:43:15,884 Yeah, but… 654 00:43:17,761 --> 00:43:21,474 she said, her mother's trying to kill her. 655 00:43:21,557 --> 00:43:23,058 And I believe her. 656 00:43:24,143 --> 00:43:25,936 Well, maybe she's right, yeah. 657 00:43:26,019 --> 00:43:28,939 But I just said why. How is she trying to do it? 658 00:43:30,107 --> 00:43:31,650 Because it's very wrong. 659 00:43:31,734 --> 00:43:33,861 Why don't you tell her to fuck off? 660 00:43:34,570 --> 00:43:36,989 Well, my mother's one of these women that… 661 00:43:38,782 --> 00:43:40,159 I mean, she's… 662 00:43:40,243 --> 00:43:43,496 she's a good woman. She's always been a good woman and she… 663 00:43:44,872 --> 00:43:47,500 When things get bad, you know, she… 664 00:43:47,583 --> 00:43:48,834 Like I was… 665 00:43:50,836 --> 00:43:53,130 not pregnant. I had a baby. 666 00:43:53,214 --> 00:43:54,548 And she killed it. 667 00:43:56,217 --> 00:43:57,593 If they say that you are bad, 668 00:43:57,676 --> 00:44:00,471 the only way to be good is by saying that you're bad, 669 00:44:00,554 --> 00:44:02,390 by agreeing that you're bad, 670 00:44:02,473 --> 00:44:04,683 so therefore you are good… 671 00:44:05,268 --> 00:44:08,145 You are, um, good to be bad. 672 00:44:08,229 --> 00:44:10,981 Because at least you are admitting that you are bad. 673 00:44:11,064 --> 00:44:14,610 - Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. - But if you… if they say that you are bad, 674 00:44:14,693 --> 00:44:17,154 and, uh, you… you don't agree that you're bad, 675 00:44:17,238 --> 00:44:20,408 then you're bound to be bad, and that's really bad. 676 00:44:22,243 --> 00:44:24,620 There's a way of, uh, 677 00:44:24,703 --> 00:44:28,916 You can, uh, look at someone and, uh, deny their existence. 678 00:44:29,875 --> 00:44:31,669 Just in looking at them. 679 00:44:32,461 --> 00:44:33,462 So they say. 680 00:44:33,504 --> 00:44:37,049 If you are born with a mother who just doesn't see you, 681 00:44:37,132 --> 00:44:40,761 who's got an idea of who you are and doesn't even bother 682 00:44:40,844 --> 00:44:43,013 to be curious about what you turn out to be, 683 00:44:43,096 --> 00:44:44,765 but knows already who you are. 684 00:44:44,848 --> 00:44:47,142 And even if… even if it… You're not the baby, 685 00:44:47,226 --> 00:44:49,542 and it's your mother. I mean, it does a little bit, doesn't it? 686 00:44:49,562 --> 00:44:51,814 I mean, it doesn't destroy you, but you… 687 00:44:51,897 --> 00:44:55,776 you do depend on other people, as, um, 688 00:44:55,859 --> 00:44:58,904 reflecting you as alive in the long term. 689 00:45:00,739 --> 00:45:02,533 But if somebody could totally ignore me 690 00:45:02,616 --> 00:45:05,286 like they totally ignored her when she came home in the morning, 691 00:45:06,161 --> 00:45:09,164 I wouldn't… my identity would just shatter. 692 00:45:09,248 --> 00:45:11,124 I know, because my mother used to say, 693 00:45:11,208 --> 00:45:13,794 "This isn't the real you" if you'd stay out all night, 694 00:45:13,877 --> 00:45:16,171 but the real you doesn't stay out all night. 695 00:45:16,255 --> 00:45:19,633 But the real me… 696 00:45:20,468 --> 00:45:23,762 Just think about this, doctor, really. Um. 697 00:45:23,846 --> 00:45:25,639 There seems to be some connection 698 00:45:25,723 --> 00:45:28,767 between the whole society of things today. 699 00:45:28,851 --> 00:45:33,606 The permissiveness, and the drug taking and, um, 700 00:45:35,023 --> 00:45:40,738 just thinking that they can march and demon­strate for the least thing. 701 00:45:40,821 --> 00:45:45,158 And it all seems to be tied up somehow. You know, they're… 702 00:45:45,242 --> 00:45:47,911 To an end which I just don't know. 703 00:45:47,995 --> 00:45:51,081 What end can it be? Where can it lead them? 704 00:45:51,164 --> 00:45:55,085 I feel that there must be more control 705 00:45:55,168 --> 00:45:58,631 over our younger generation. Because... 706 00:45:58,714 --> 00:46:01,509 You feel that control is the answer? 707 00:46:01,592 --> 00:46:03,218 - More control? - I think so. 708 00:46:03,302 --> 00:46:07,640 One of Janice's feelings is that she is being controlled. 709 00:46:09,975 --> 00:46:12,436 I find this very hard to take, you know doctor, 710 00:46:12,520 --> 00:46:17,358 because you're saying now, again, that it is the parents… it is my fault. 711 00:46:17,441 --> 00:46:20,569 And that I've been the cause of this. It's very hard to take, you know, 712 00:46:20,653 --> 00:46:24,197 when you have, in fact, done the best you can for your child. 713 00:46:24,281 --> 00:46:29,328 It's very, um, dis­heartening and upsetting and disturbing and, 714 00:46:29,412 --> 00:46:31,497 you know, I'm very conscious of this and… 715 00:46:31,580 --> 00:46:35,334 Yes, yes, I can see that, but, I mean, after all Janice, uh, 716 00:46:35,418 --> 00:46:38,796 in trouble. I mean that in itself is sufficiently upsetting, isn't it? 717 00:46:38,879 --> 00:46:39,713 This is terrible. Yes. 718 00:46:39,797 --> 00:46:43,258 And, uh, I sometimes lie in bed at night and think, well, 719 00:46:43,342 --> 00:46:46,929 one can never get back on this even keel that we were on. 720 00:46:47,012 --> 00:46:49,014 Well, is it a matter of getting back? 721 00:46:49,097 --> 00:46:53,477 Well, for my part, yes, because we were a happy family. 722 00:46:53,561 --> 00:46:55,228 We didn't have all this upheaval. 723 00:46:55,312 --> 00:46:57,565 - Yes. But you were all together. - Yes. 724 00:46:57,648 --> 00:47:01,360 Jan wants to, separate and go off and live her own life. 725 00:47:01,444 --> 00:47:05,531 If this… If this… You feel when she's had this therapy, 726 00:47:05,614 --> 00:47:08,241 she can do, she's capable of doing, 727 00:47:08,325 --> 00:47:11,161 I will be very willing to let her go 728 00:47:11,244 --> 00:47:14,623 and… and see what happens then. 729 00:47:14,707 --> 00:47:19,044 - Um, because I do… - Yes, but you've also got to be capable, 730 00:47:19,127 --> 00:47:25,050 of accepting it. Because when you separate from your… from your daughter, 731 00:47:25,133 --> 00:47:27,678 it isn't just her that's got to be cap­able of doing it, 732 00:47:27,761 --> 00:47:29,847 you've got to be capable of doing it too. 733 00:47:29,930 --> 00:47:32,516 Certainly, I mean, um, from a good girl 734 00:47:32,600 --> 00:47:34,852 behav­ing quite normally, 735 00:47:34,935 --> 00:47:37,312 quite happy with the situation in life. 736 00:47:37,396 --> 00:47:39,982 Yes, but what do you call "quite happy"? Is it… is… is… 737 00:47:40,065 --> 00:47:43,861 Do you really think then she agrees with you? 738 00:47:43,944 --> 00:47:46,614 I did feel that there was nothing wrong until... 739 00:47:46,697 --> 00:47:51,410 Is it only when she agrees with you that you do feel there's nothing wrong? 740 00:47:52,745 --> 00:47:56,540 Yes, but she didn't do the diabolical things that she's doing now. 741 00:47:56,624 --> 00:47:58,333 And she is doing diabolical things. 742 00:47:58,417 --> 00:48:01,629 Yes, but… perhaps what you call a diabolical thing 743 00:48:01,712 --> 00:48:04,006 is simply something that you don't agree with. 744 00:48:06,008 --> 00:48:09,094 Such as having abortion? Do you think that's… 745 00:48:09,177 --> 00:48:11,179 Would you agree with it if it was your daughter? 746 00:48:11,263 --> 00:48:13,306 Was that her decision? 747 00:48:14,182 --> 00:48:17,394 What… what else was there for her? What was there? 748 00:48:17,478 --> 00:48:20,898 It would've only ruined her life, wouldn't it? And if… 749 00:48:20,981 --> 00:48:24,527 I… I'm quite certain of this and everyone around her. 750 00:48:24,610 --> 00:48:28,238 Yes, but, uh, that's another point, isn't it? 751 00:48:30,323 --> 00:48:33,952 Well, all I can say is whatever I did, I did the best for her. 752 00:48:34,036 --> 00:48:36,079 And this is what I felt was the best for her. 753 00:48:36,830 --> 00:48:38,999 But, I mean, they can't have it both ways. 754 00:48:39,082 --> 00:48:39,917 They can't… 755 00:48:40,000 --> 00:48:41,919 Well, nobody can have it both ways, can they? 756 00:48:42,002 --> 00:48:43,150 No. They can't take it from you... 757 00:48:43,170 --> 00:48:46,131 In some ways, you see, I think that you want it both ways. 758 00:48:46,882 --> 00:48:48,967 'Cause you want her to stand on her own feet. 759 00:48:49,051 --> 00:48:50,783 - I do want her… - But you also want her to do 760 00:48:50,803 --> 00:48:52,179 what you want. 761 00:48:54,097 --> 00:48:57,685 Not so much what I want, but what I feel is good for her. 762 00:48:57,768 --> 00:48:59,610 - Because... - That's the same thing, isn't it? 763 00:49:00,479 --> 00:49:01,313 Well maybe... 764 00:49:01,396 --> 00:49:05,192 Because what you feel is good for her, she may not agree with. She may... 765 00:49:05,275 --> 00:49:08,320 Yes, but then I… I realize that she is not yet responsible enough 766 00:49:08,403 --> 00:49:10,363 to know, what is good for her. 767 00:49:10,447 --> 00:49:11,448 Yeah but, if… 768 00:49:11,490 --> 00:49:14,159 When she becomes responsible, then she does know, 769 00:49:14,242 --> 00:49:16,495 and I feel that you're rather reluctant, 770 00:49:16,579 --> 00:49:19,289 to admit that that might ever be the case. 771 00:49:19,372 --> 00:49:21,374 And you think that the behavior 772 00:49:21,458 --> 00:49:24,211 that's gone before this last episode, 773 00:49:24,294 --> 00:49:27,339 um, is an act of a responsible person? You think... 774 00:49:27,422 --> 00:49:31,134 It is the act of a person who is seeking respons­ibility, 775 00:49:31,218 --> 00:49:34,471 but is being frustrated in finding it. 776 00:49:35,556 --> 00:49:39,602 Oh, well, it's very nice that she can come to this sort of place 777 00:49:39,685 --> 00:49:42,354 and that you're going to help me sort this out. 778 00:49:45,357 --> 00:49:46,984 - And… - Mmh. 779 00:49:47,067 --> 00:49:49,820 And when your feelings are involved as well 780 00:49:49,903 --> 00:49:52,364 and your feelings about being at all, 781 00:49:52,447 --> 00:49:55,576 not just, you know, whether it's nice or not. 782 00:49:55,659 --> 00:49:56,577 Yes. 783 00:49:56,660 --> 00:50:02,625 Then in a way, being mad and cutting yourself off from the world, 784 00:50:02,708 --> 00:50:07,212 is the only place that you can really be private. 785 00:50:09,214 --> 00:50:10,215 Hmm. 786 00:50:10,549 --> 00:50:12,593 You mean it's like, it's your, 787 00:50:12,676 --> 00:50:14,344 your own little bit of safety? 788 00:50:14,427 --> 00:50:15,303 Yeah. 789 00:50:15,387 --> 00:50:19,266 So I mean, one of the things is that you can't really stand 790 00:50:19,349 --> 00:50:21,184 your parents' disapproval. 791 00:50:21,935 --> 00:50:25,188 Actually, it upsets you so much… 792 00:50:26,565 --> 00:50:30,360 that you feel you've either got to, do what they say, 793 00:50:30,861 --> 00:50:34,489 or else it throws you into, 794 00:50:34,573 --> 00:50:36,199 into confusion. 795 00:50:37,117 --> 00:50:39,536 And… and you've got to be able to, I mean, 796 00:50:39,620 --> 00:50:42,205 we've got to find a way to help you, 797 00:50:42,289 --> 00:50:45,834 to both stand up to them… 798 00:50:46,669 --> 00:50:47,878 Hmm. 799 00:50:47,961 --> 00:50:49,379 ...and not hate them, 800 00:50:49,462 --> 00:50:51,840 for… for disapproving of you either. 801 00:50:53,676 --> 00:50:54,885 Yeah. 802 00:50:56,511 --> 00:50:57,971 And this takes time. 803 00:50:58,055 --> 00:51:01,433 We have a fairly long agenda on… to get through this morning. 804 00:51:01,516 --> 00:51:07,564 And as the time is now five past ten, er, let us get on to the first item, 805 00:51:07,648 --> 00:51:10,108 which is the question of whether Dr. Donaldson's appointment 806 00:51:10,192 --> 00:51:13,612 as registrar shall be renewed or not. 807 00:51:13,696 --> 00:51:15,488 Erm. 808 00:51:15,572 --> 00:51:17,282 Dr. Carswell, as consultant 809 00:51:17,365 --> 00:51:19,576 in Doctor Donaldson's division, perhaps you can... 810 00:51:19,660 --> 00:51:21,912 He's done some very interesting work. 811 00:51:22,537 --> 00:51:25,373 Experimental and imaginative. 812 00:51:25,457 --> 00:51:29,169 And I think that many of us would benefit from his, theoretical conclusions. 813 00:51:29,252 --> 00:51:33,090 All the same, I think there is something to be said for, 814 00:51:33,173 --> 00:51:35,676 keeping a man like that in circulation. 815 00:51:36,677 --> 00:51:37,886 You know? 816 00:51:38,929 --> 00:51:40,263 Another hospital and… 817 00:51:40,347 --> 00:51:43,809 You do realize this man, has asked to stay on, don't you? 818 00:51:43,892 --> 00:51:45,894 Yes, they informed me. 819 00:51:45,978 --> 00:51:50,523 The state of Donaldson's actual ward is, uh, 820 00:51:50,607 --> 00:51:53,235 not one to which Dr. Carswell is highly sympathetic. 821 00:51:54,402 --> 00:51:58,156 For your information, I have taken great and sympathetic interest in Dr. Donaldson, 822 00:51:58,240 --> 00:52:00,158 his method and treatment. 823 00:52:00,701 --> 00:52:03,120 I have watched his work with the patients in his charge, 824 00:52:03,203 --> 00:52:05,330 and if this were a medical convention, 825 00:52:05,413 --> 00:52:08,751 I would defend him as a highly original and imaginative psychiatrist. 826 00:52:09,334 --> 00:52:12,087 The fact that, in your opinion, shock therapy, 827 00:52:12,170 --> 00:52:14,256 drug treatment, and all the rest of it, 828 00:52:14,339 --> 00:52:17,550 are highly successful forms of, er, 829 00:52:17,634 --> 00:52:20,077 treating his patients, of course had no bearing on the matter. 830 00:52:20,512 --> 00:52:22,848 Well, I don't know, but I don't wish to appear heartless, 831 00:52:22,931 --> 00:52:25,288 but it does seem to me that there's special pleading going on 832 00:52:25,308 --> 00:52:26,498 from the gentleman on my left, 833 00:52:26,518 --> 00:52:29,479 as far as Dr. Donaldson's ward is concerned. 834 00:52:29,562 --> 00:52:34,651 Now, I hear, in fact, we all administer some 1,500 patients in this hospital. 835 00:52:34,735 --> 00:52:36,403 It's a valuable matter, you know. 836 00:52:36,486 --> 00:52:38,446 - Not only... - But I'm sorry, as far as this 837 00:52:38,530 --> 00:52:41,283 committee meeting is concerned it is an admin­istrative matter. 838 00:52:41,366 --> 00:52:43,660 Now if we're to allow some 30 people 839 00:52:43,744 --> 00:52:46,830 to be treated in a totally different way from the other, 840 00:52:46,914 --> 00:52:49,166 what, 1200 people in this hospital… 841 00:52:49,249 --> 00:52:52,627 You see, I do think this is a point. It seems to be, 842 00:52:52,711 --> 00:52:56,381 divid­ing the… the… the issue, the fact that this is not, 843 00:52:56,464 --> 00:53:00,218 this is not a bureaucratic decision, should a man go at the end of two years. 844 00:53:00,302 --> 00:53:02,971 - Could you add anything to this? - What? 845 00:53:03,055 --> 00:53:05,098 I said, could you add anything to the discussion? 846 00:53:05,182 --> 00:53:06,683 Yes, quite willing to. 847 00:53:06,767 --> 00:53:08,143 Oh, good. 848 00:53:08,226 --> 00:53:11,604 And as far as I understand Dr. Carswell's point of view, 849 00:53:11,688 --> 00:53:14,107 it is in fact that the appointment should not be renewed. 850 00:53:14,191 --> 00:53:15,567 That's correct. 851 00:53:16,359 --> 00:53:17,527 In that case, Mr. Pullen, 852 00:53:17,610 --> 00:53:20,135 would you be kind enough to ask Dr. Donaldson to step into the room? 853 00:53:20,155 --> 00:53:21,782 - Certainly, sir. - Thank you. 854 00:53:24,743 --> 00:53:26,578 Dr. Donaldson, would you come in, please. 855 00:53:28,872 --> 00:53:30,332 Care to take a seat. 856 00:53:30,415 --> 00:53:31,624 Good morning, Dr. Donaldson. 857 00:53:31,708 --> 00:53:33,585 Good morning. Thank you. 858 00:53:33,668 --> 00:53:35,943 I don't think I need to introduce the members of the committee to you. 859 00:53:35,963 --> 00:53:37,923 - No. - Good. 860 00:53:38,006 --> 00:53:41,176 Erm, Dr. Donald­son, we have received your application 861 00:53:41,259 --> 00:53:46,723 for renewal of your appoint­ment and in accordance with our usual custom, 862 00:53:46,807 --> 00:53:49,101 we wish you bon voyage and good luck 863 00:53:49,184 --> 00:53:52,104 in any other appointment you care to take up else­where. 864 00:53:53,063 --> 00:53:56,608 Erm. I thought there was, uh, 865 00:53:57,525 --> 00:54:00,320 I thought there was going to be a discussion about this. 866 00:54:14,001 --> 00:54:16,149 I'm not worrying. I just want to know where we're going. 867 00:54:16,169 --> 00:54:18,881 I'm taking you somewhere where they'll make you better. 868 00:54:18,964 --> 00:54:19,798 But where? 869 00:54:19,882 --> 00:54:23,385 Oh, don't worry, you spend most of your time worrying. 870 00:54:26,096 --> 00:54:27,514 Will you come in now, Jan? 871 00:54:34,855 --> 00:54:37,274 Hello, Jan. How are you? 872 00:54:38,650 --> 00:54:41,361 Would you like to take your cardigan and your shoes off? 873 00:54:41,444 --> 00:54:43,030 Don't want an injection. 874 00:54:43,113 --> 00:54:45,115 Don't worry, it won't hurt. 875 00:54:45,698 --> 00:54:46,867 Take it off. 876 00:54:49,119 --> 00:54:50,453 And your cardigan. 877 00:54:53,999 --> 00:54:55,667 And on the bed. 878 00:54:56,376 --> 00:54:57,983 - Now, this is... - You won't give me an injection, will you? 879 00:54:58,003 --> 00:55:00,255 Don't worry. We do this every day. 880 00:55:05,385 --> 00:55:06,594 Just down a little. 881 00:55:10,640 --> 00:55:12,725 Lie down. Leg up. 882 00:55:12,809 --> 00:55:14,394 Give me your arm. 883 00:55:14,477 --> 00:55:15,728 Don't give me an injection. 884 00:55:16,438 --> 00:55:17,898 It's just going to be a small prick, 885 00:55:17,981 --> 00:55:19,671 and then you'll feel yourself going to sleep. 886 00:55:19,691 --> 00:55:21,151 Don't want to go to sleep. 887 00:55:21,234 --> 00:55:22,903 Now, just a little prick. 888 00:55:22,986 --> 00:55:24,529 Put your head down. 889 00:55:24,612 --> 00:55:26,406 Look away. 890 00:55:28,200 --> 00:55:30,243 Just a little prick coming now. 891 00:55:30,327 --> 00:55:33,872 - Now, there you go, that's it. - Ouch! Ouch! 892 00:55:33,956 --> 00:55:36,749 - It's all right, Janice. - Don't want it. 893 00:55:37,876 --> 00:55:38,919 There you are, that's all. 894 00:55:39,002 --> 00:55:40,921 - Now, here you go. - I don't want… 895 00:55:43,840 --> 00:55:45,842 - Count if you like. - I don't want it. 896 00:55:45,926 --> 00:55:48,636 One, two, three, four, five. 897 00:55:48,720 --> 00:55:50,055 Don't want it. 898 00:55:50,138 --> 00:55:52,807 Now, are you feeling tired? 899 00:55:52,891 --> 00:55:54,101 Don't want to go to sleep. 900 00:55:54,184 --> 00:55:56,019 Now you're going to sleep. 901 00:55:56,103 --> 00:55:57,980 Don't want to go to sleep. 902 00:55:59,982 --> 00:56:02,901 There you are. There you are. 903 00:56:20,127 --> 00:56:22,379 - She's quite relaxed now. - Yeah. 904 00:56:39,771 --> 00:56:40,772 All right? 905 00:57:03,336 --> 00:57:04,421 Ready? 906 00:57:08,883 --> 00:57:09,884 Right. 907 00:57:32,074 --> 00:57:33,825 Okay. 908 00:57:39,581 --> 00:57:41,374 This is a different type of ward, 909 00:57:41,458 --> 00:57:43,876 and it's a different type of treat­ment. 910 00:57:43,960 --> 00:57:48,965 Our first objective is to get people in Janice's condition 911 00:57:49,049 --> 00:57:51,759 out of hospital and back to normal life. 912 00:57:51,843 --> 00:57:54,846 Well, w… w… what were they doing in the other ward then? 913 00:57:54,929 --> 00:57:57,849 The other ward has been closed for administrative reasons, Mr. Bailden. 914 00:57:58,683 --> 00:58:00,477 In any case, I… 915 00:58:00,560 --> 00:58:03,146 I don't think Janice was responding there, 916 00:58:03,230 --> 00:58:05,857 but I'm really very optimistic about her chances here. 917 00:58:05,940 --> 00:58:07,130 It's nice to hear you say that. 918 00:58:07,150 --> 00:58:10,070 I think I can promise you we'll have her back to you very soon. 919 00:58:10,153 --> 00:58:14,866 I'm glad to say the, days of long stays in mental hospitals are over. 920 00:58:14,949 --> 00:58:17,160 Especially for young people. It's quite unnecessary. 921 00:58:18,078 --> 00:58:22,707 Well, excuse me asking… asking you doctor, but, uh, 922 00:58:22,790 --> 00:58:24,834 what is the matter with Janice? 923 00:58:25,710 --> 00:58:27,295 Well. 924 00:58:27,379 --> 00:58:32,008 The indications are that it's a schizophrenic condition. 925 00:58:32,092 --> 00:58:33,426 There's many forms and symptoms 926 00:58:33,510 --> 00:58:35,845 and I don't want to bother you with all that. 927 00:58:35,928 --> 00:58:38,181 The important thing is not to worry. 928 00:58:38,265 --> 00:58:40,683 We'll eliminate the symptoms and then, 929 00:58:40,767 --> 00:58:43,478 when the time comes, we'll provide her with, 930 00:58:43,561 --> 00:58:45,480 any necessary drugs for use at home. 931 00:58:51,778 --> 00:58:52,987 Thank you very much, Sister. 932 00:58:53,071 --> 00:58:54,864 - Thanks a lot. - Bye-bye. 933 00:58:54,947 --> 00:58:56,408 - Bye-bye, Janice. - Come on. 934 00:59:00,412 --> 00:59:02,330 - Yes. - But pills and… 935 00:59:02,414 --> 00:59:05,667 Well, it's important. Obviously, they are important. 936 00:59:07,335 --> 00:59:09,003 What's the matter? 937 00:59:09,087 --> 00:59:10,797 What are they whispering for? 938 00:59:10,880 --> 00:59:12,257 They're not whispering. 939 00:59:16,469 --> 00:59:19,181 Come on. You and I, we'll go on ahead. 940 00:59:19,264 --> 00:59:20,348 All right. 941 01:00:22,577 --> 01:00:23,828 You'll see. 942 01:00:24,579 --> 01:00:25,580 Come on. 943 01:00:26,331 --> 01:00:27,915 What's up here… 944 01:00:53,275 --> 01:00:55,777 Well, what do you think? 945 01:00:58,655 --> 01:00:59,906 Do you like it? 946 01:01:03,243 --> 01:01:04,619 Very much, yeah. 947 01:01:06,663 --> 01:01:07,830 Well, it's yours. 948 01:01:14,086 --> 01:01:15,547 Actually, Tim, 949 01:01:16,589 --> 01:01:19,467 I'd… I'd rather not take it home with me. 950 01:01:19,551 --> 01:01:20,802 Why not? 951 01:01:24,431 --> 01:01:26,224 They could never accept it. 952 01:01:27,934 --> 01:01:28,935 Come here. 953 01:01:32,689 --> 01:01:35,692 Look at that out there. That's your mum and dad. 954 01:01:36,276 --> 01:01:37,402 Get that. 955 01:01:39,195 --> 01:01:41,573 Early to bed, early to rise, out to work. 956 01:01:41,656 --> 01:01:43,866 That's your mum and dad. 957 01:01:44,534 --> 01:01:45,785 Do as they're told. 958 01:01:45,868 --> 01:01:47,620 That's what they got to do to you. 959 01:01:48,330 --> 01:01:49,664 And that's normal. 960 01:01:49,747 --> 01:01:51,541 You see, that's normal. 961 01:01:53,376 --> 01:01:56,170 But is it sane? I mean, do you think it's sane? 962 01:01:59,131 --> 01:02:00,550 'Cause I don't. 963 01:02:02,885 --> 01:02:04,304 Punctual. 964 01:02:05,513 --> 01:02:07,474 Passive in their place. 965 01:02:08,516 --> 01:02:11,561 So that they can go out there, out to one of those factories, 966 01:02:11,644 --> 01:02:13,771 and do a day's work. 967 01:02:13,855 --> 01:02:15,398 That's what it's about. 968 01:02:16,941 --> 01:02:19,861 That's what it is and that's what families are. 969 01:02:19,944 --> 01:02:22,739 - What? - Like bloody training camps. 970 01:02:23,490 --> 01:02:27,201 Aren't they? To get you to do the same thing. 971 01:02:28,661 --> 01:02:30,413 Where are you in all this? 972 01:02:30,997 --> 01:02:33,082 Eh, I mean, where are you? 973 01:02:33,165 --> 01:02:37,128 You see, you can't change it. You can put your mark on it. 974 01:02:45,970 --> 01:02:47,930 He looks like he's crying. 975 01:03:01,277 --> 01:03:03,571 Aw. Think I'll have a quick leak. 976 01:03:07,700 --> 01:03:09,827 I needed that. 977 01:03:18,753 --> 01:03:21,589 Oh, look at that. Watch. Watch. 978 01:03:22,340 --> 01:03:23,925 Fantastic. 979 01:03:29,806 --> 01:03:32,934 Spray it on really thick. On the top. 980 01:03:33,017 --> 01:03:34,602 I'm trying. 981 01:03:43,528 --> 01:03:45,112 - Tim. - What? 982 01:03:45,196 --> 01:03:47,532 You look amazing with blue hair. 983 01:03:47,615 --> 01:03:49,992 You bastard. 984 01:03:58,626 --> 01:03:59,669 Sorry. 985 01:04:00,878 --> 01:04:02,922 You little cow. 986 01:04:10,513 --> 01:04:11,514 No! 987 01:04:50,177 --> 01:04:51,971 Vera! 988 01:05:04,859 --> 01:05:06,861 What the hell do you think you're up to? 989 01:05:07,487 --> 01:05:09,405 Have you seen that garden down there? 990 01:05:10,239 --> 01:05:12,199 And it's nothing to laugh at. 991 01:05:12,283 --> 01:05:13,925 Have you seen the state my gnomes are in? 992 01:05:15,286 --> 01:05:18,665 They're like the bleeding seven dwarfs in Technicolor. 993 01:05:18,748 --> 01:05:21,417 And don't be laughing at me. It's not a laughing matter. 994 01:05:22,627 --> 01:05:24,921 And stop playing with the wallpaper. 995 01:05:25,004 --> 01:05:26,766 God knows what you will be playing with next. 996 01:05:27,423 --> 01:05:29,676 Your mother can take you to work on Monday. 997 01:05:29,759 --> 01:05:32,970 And I'll pick you up. You'll not get out of this bloody house. 998 01:05:33,054 --> 01:05:36,182 You stupid bloody bitch. You're raving mad. 999 01:05:41,646 --> 01:05:44,899 Now, I hope you're going to enjoy this because I spent a long time preparing it. 1000 01:05:44,982 --> 01:05:46,568 We'll never eat all that, Mum. 1001 01:05:46,651 --> 01:05:49,050 We had a big Sunday dinner, you know. We'll never eat it all. 1002 01:05:49,070 --> 01:05:53,700 Oh well, it is there and… if it wasn't there you couldn't have it, 1003 01:05:53,783 --> 01:05:57,453 and it is. So if you can't eat it, just leave it, all right? 1004 01:05:57,537 --> 01:05:59,246 Can I cut your meat for you, love? 1005 01:05:59,330 --> 01:06:01,457 She can feed herself, you know, Dad. 1006 01:06:01,541 --> 01:06:03,668 You like Grandad doing this, don't you, eh? 1007 01:06:04,251 --> 01:06:06,838 All right dear. Got everything? 1008 01:06:10,174 --> 01:06:12,969 Come on, I want to see it all cleared up, don't forget? 1009 01:06:13,052 --> 01:06:14,637 - All right. - And you will, won't you? 1010 01:06:14,721 --> 01:06:16,848 You just prove to Mummy that you can eat it. 1011 01:06:17,890 --> 01:06:19,371 Because you know you're on my side, aren't you? 1012 01:06:19,391 --> 01:06:22,854 Mum said you didn't want any, and you do, don't you? 1013 01:06:24,689 --> 01:06:25,732 Thank you. 1014 01:06:27,609 --> 01:06:29,819 - How's Derek? - Oh, he's fine. 1015 01:06:29,902 --> 01:06:32,113 Thought perhaps, we might have seen him this afternoon. 1016 01:06:32,196 --> 01:06:33,615 Well, he was going to come, 1017 01:06:33,698 --> 01:06:36,618 but some over­time came up, so he thought he might as well do it. 1018 01:06:36,701 --> 01:06:38,953 Hmm. Think he ought to try and put himself out a bit, 1019 01:06:39,036 --> 01:06:40,454 now and again and come down. 1020 01:06:41,038 --> 01:06:43,708 - Think he'll know his way? - Well. 1021 01:06:43,791 --> 01:06:46,085 Well, if he doesn't want to come, this is fine. I mean... 1022 01:06:46,168 --> 01:06:48,420 Well it's not a question of not wanting to, but, I mean, 1023 01:06:48,504 --> 01:06:52,508 naturally, you know, money does come first, doesn't it? 1024 01:06:52,592 --> 01:06:54,218 Hmm, with a lot of people, it does. 1025 01:06:54,301 --> 01:06:56,063 Of course, if you can earn a bit extra money. 1026 01:06:56,095 --> 01:06:57,937 Unless he wants to borrow something, of course. 1027 01:06:58,014 --> 01:07:00,376 But, I should say that coming to see your mother and father, 1028 01:07:00,432 --> 01:07:02,810 um, comes before quite a few things. 1029 01:07:03,394 --> 01:07:05,187 Well, if he could come, he would. 1030 01:07:05,271 --> 01:07:07,439 - Oh. That's all right, then. - Want some more, love? 1031 01:07:07,523 --> 01:07:09,245 As long as I've got your assurance on that, 1032 01:07:09,275 --> 01:07:10,735 I can feel very much happier. 1033 01:07:12,153 --> 01:07:16,032 Eat all that up, then we can… I've got a surprise for you then. 1034 01:07:16,616 --> 01:07:19,869 You'd better eat it up, or your Nana will put it in my sandwiches all week. 1035 01:07:19,952 --> 01:07:20,953 Won't she? 1036 01:07:20,995 --> 01:07:22,872 Don't you believe him, that isn't true. 1037 01:07:29,754 --> 01:07:32,173 Is Jan going to stay up in her room all day then, or what? 1038 01:07:33,174 --> 01:07:34,550 Well, I hope she'll be down later, 1039 01:07:34,634 --> 01:07:38,054 but she has taken to staying in her room longer now. 1040 01:07:38,137 --> 01:07:42,684 Since she's been, um, out at this job, she seems to need the rest. 1041 01:07:42,767 --> 01:07:43,601 Yes. 1042 01:07:43,685 --> 01:07:45,917 - After all, you know, she's been very ill. - Oh, I know. 1043 01:07:45,937 --> 01:07:48,022 She's been a very sick child. 1044 01:07:48,105 --> 01:07:49,827 I don't know why you're wasting your breath, 1045 01:07:49,899 --> 01:07:51,609 because Barbara knows. 1046 01:07:51,693 --> 01:07:53,716 She hasn't been to see Jan, but she knows all about it, 1047 01:07:53,736 --> 01:07:55,738 and what's good for Jan and every­thing. 1048 01:07:56,823 --> 01:07:59,033 Probably through her that Jan's in the state she's in. 1049 01:07:59,116 --> 01:08:02,369 You always resented me for being independent, that's what it was. 1050 01:08:02,453 --> 01:08:04,371 Me, resented you being independent? 1051 01:08:04,455 --> 01:08:05,561 Yeah. She should have got out as well. 1052 01:08:05,581 --> 01:08:07,438 I was worried about the example you were setting your sister, 1053 01:08:07,458 --> 01:08:08,480 that's what I was worried about. 1054 01:08:08,500 --> 01:08:10,274 She'd had any sense she'd have got out as well. 1055 01:08:10,294 --> 01:08:12,610 - So don't you talk about upsets. - She doesn't want to do that. 1056 01:08:12,630 --> 01:08:14,320 - And, keep that advice to yourself. - She doesn't want to get out. 1057 01:08:14,340 --> 01:08:17,551 The reason she didn't get out, she's too bloody weak. That's her problem. 1058 01:08:17,635 --> 01:08:21,347 She respected her parents. And you call that weakness, don't you? 1059 01:08:21,430 --> 01:08:22,514 Oh, Mum. 1060 01:08:22,598 --> 01:08:25,893 Can't spend the rest of our lives just trying to please you and him, can we? 1061 01:08:26,686 --> 01:08:27,959 Look, just because you left home, 1062 01:08:27,979 --> 01:08:29,861 there's no reason why she should have left home. 1063 01:08:29,897 --> 01:08:31,941 Bloody pity you won't let her stand on her own feet. 1064 01:08:32,024 --> 01:08:33,589 - And shut up anyway. - You don't do too badly. 1065 01:08:33,609 --> 01:08:34,924 And don't be arguing in front of the children. 1066 01:08:34,944 --> 01:08:36,884 - I'm trying to have my tea. - You're doing all the arguing. 1067 01:08:36,904 --> 01:08:38,239 So just button it. 1068 01:08:41,909 --> 01:08:45,121 Jan. How are you, love? 1069 01:08:46,914 --> 01:08:49,125 - All right? - I'm okay. 1070 01:08:56,215 --> 01:08:57,675 Have a nice sleep, dear? 1071 01:08:59,426 --> 01:09:00,762 Yes, thank you. 1072 01:09:03,806 --> 01:09:05,725 You know, you can always come and live with me. 1073 01:09:05,808 --> 01:09:07,769 If you feel like a change. 1074 01:09:09,561 --> 01:09:11,731 - She doesn't want to. - How do you know? 1075 01:09:11,814 --> 01:09:13,232 Well, ask her then. 1076 01:09:13,733 --> 01:09:15,484 What do you think, Jan? 1077 01:09:17,278 --> 01:09:19,613 You don't want someone like me around, Barb. 1078 01:09:20,406 --> 01:09:24,201 Can't you get it into your head that she's been a very sick girl, 1079 01:09:24,285 --> 01:09:27,747 and she'd have a fine time, wouldn't she, galivanting around with you all the time? 1080 01:09:27,830 --> 01:09:30,582 Yeah. Be rotten if she had a good time, wouldn't it? 1081 01:09:30,666 --> 01:09:33,460 It's a pity you haven't given me a bit more help with her. 1082 01:09:33,544 --> 01:09:37,173 And come round and seen how she is from time to time, bit more often. 1083 01:09:37,256 --> 01:09:38,090 Not once did you go 1084 01:09:38,174 --> 01:09:39,906 and see her in the hospital, and I think that was disgusting. 1085 01:09:39,926 --> 01:09:42,094 You didn't even let me know how bad she was, did you? 1086 01:09:42,178 --> 01:09:44,596 Look! Your sister wasn't well. 1087 01:09:44,680 --> 01:09:46,182 She is your sister and if anyone... 1088 01:09:46,265 --> 01:09:49,226 As far as you were concerned this was a phase she was going through. 1089 01:09:49,310 --> 01:09:50,872 I don't call this a phase. Look at her. 1090 01:09:50,937 --> 01:09:53,355 Just who do you think you're talking to? 1091 01:09:53,898 --> 01:09:55,587 I'm talking to my mother. Is that all right? 1092 01:09:55,607 --> 01:09:58,652 - Oh, you do realize it is your mother? - Yes, I do. 1093 01:09:58,736 --> 01:10:01,948 It's not just some… somebody you've just met in the street? 1094 01:10:02,031 --> 01:10:04,658 You're only telling her she doesn't know what she is doing. 1095 01:10:04,742 --> 01:10:06,473 - Look, I'm allowed to give an opinion. - I think she knows what she's doing. 1096 01:10:06,493 --> 01:10:08,955 That's your own flesh and blood. Look at the state of her. 1097 01:10:09,038 --> 01:10:10,497 Fancy letting her get like that. 1098 01:10:10,581 --> 01:10:12,146 Well, I'll tell you what. I'm sorry you're my flesh and blood, 1099 01:10:12,166 --> 01:10:14,273 because I don't think you are at times, the way you carry on. 1100 01:10:14,293 --> 01:10:16,378 I'm bloody sorry I'm yours, don't you worry. 1101 01:10:16,462 --> 01:10:17,568 You've always been a bloody rebel, you have. 1102 01:10:17,588 --> 01:10:19,791 Don't use that language in front of the children either. 1103 01:10:20,049 --> 01:10:21,718 If you don't consider them, I do. 1104 01:10:21,801 --> 01:10:24,178 I wouldn't talk like that in front of them. 1105 01:10:26,555 --> 01:10:27,912 You've done this to her, you know. 1106 01:10:27,932 --> 01:10:29,809 - You think so, do you? - Yes. Yes, I do. 1107 01:10:29,892 --> 01:10:33,062 It's a very terrible thing to say to your mother after I've brought you up. 1108 01:10:33,145 --> 01:10:35,544 It might be a terrible thing to say, but it's the truth, anyway. 1109 01:10:35,564 --> 01:10:37,566 Well, all I hope is that it doesn't happen to you. 1110 01:10:38,192 --> 01:10:39,944 That your children don't turn out... 1111 01:10:40,027 --> 01:10:41,508 This wouldn't… this wouldn't happen to my children. 1112 01:10:41,528 --> 01:10:42,844 I don't know how you can go on... 1113 01:10:42,864 --> 01:10:44,428 So you know better than the doctors now, do you? 1114 01:10:44,448 --> 01:10:48,369 You know better than them who are trained professionals? 1115 01:10:48,452 --> 01:10:50,412 Look at her. She's lost about a stone. 1116 01:10:50,496 --> 01:10:51,936 I wouldn't even have recognized her. 1117 01:10:51,956 --> 01:10:54,318 She'll lose another bloody stone the way you're carrying on. 1118 01:10:54,375 --> 01:10:56,752 I'm not going to have these children upset any more. 1119 01:10:57,544 --> 01:11:00,756 Never mind, dears. Would you like some jelly? Nan's made some nice jellies. 1120 01:11:00,840 --> 01:11:03,447 - Would you like me to go and get some? - Just pass it off, just like that, yes. 1121 01:11:03,467 --> 01:11:05,469 Mind your own business, will you? 1122 01:11:05,552 --> 01:11:07,304 Be quiet for five minutes, 1123 01:11:07,388 --> 01:11:09,056 or else get out and go. 1124 01:11:09,140 --> 01:11:11,455 - I've had just about enough of you today. - Yeah. I can't get out quick enough. 1125 01:11:11,475 --> 01:11:13,936 All right, dears, I'll go and get you a jelly, shall I? 1126 01:11:15,062 --> 01:11:17,503 Yeah, that's the ans­wer to all, isn't it? Go and get a jelly. 1127 01:11:17,523 --> 01:11:20,651 And there's no need to be sarcastic about it. 1128 01:11:21,277 --> 01:11:22,611 None, whatsoever. 1129 01:11:22,694 --> 01:11:25,011 Haven't you two ever stopped to realize why she's like this? 1130 01:11:25,031 --> 01:11:26,407 Can't you see why? 1131 01:11:26,490 --> 01:11:29,160 Because she's sick, isn't she? 1132 01:11:29,243 --> 01:11:31,913 - You must be too close to it to realize. - I didn't make her sick. 1133 01:11:31,996 --> 01:11:33,477 - Probably. - I wish she'd come home with me. 1134 01:11:33,497 --> 01:11:34,854 - That's why they've sent her out. - I'd make her a bit happier than that. 1135 01:11:34,874 --> 01:11:36,981 Because they know what a good mother and father she's got. 1136 01:11:37,001 --> 01:11:38,878 You must be joking. 1137 01:11:38,961 --> 01:11:41,923 Oh, you're a cheeky bloody bitch, you are. 1138 01:11:42,006 --> 01:11:43,382 Words just fail me with you. 1139 01:11:43,465 --> 01:11:46,365 Yeah, 'cause you don't like the truth, do you? It bloody hurts, doesn't it? 1140 01:11:46,385 --> 01:11:48,762 Oh, shut up, for Christ's sake. 1141 01:11:48,846 --> 01:11:51,891 And don't tell me to shut up. You're not talking to Jan now, you know. 1142 01:11:56,103 --> 01:11:58,230 What are you going to do about this anyway? 1143 01:12:00,482 --> 01:12:02,401 - What am I going to do about it? - Yes. You. 1144 01:12:02,484 --> 01:12:04,216 Well, I'm not going to tell you to begin with, 1145 01:12:04,236 --> 01:12:06,405 because it's none of your business what I do about it. 1146 01:12:06,488 --> 01:12:08,699 What have you done since you've left here? 1147 01:12:08,782 --> 01:12:12,161 Ten years moving from one flat to another. You must have moved three times. 1148 01:12:12,244 --> 01:12:14,580 Well, at least we've improved ourselves, haven't we? 1149 01:12:14,663 --> 01:12:16,103 - I'll tell you what, if this… - It's regular. 1150 01:12:16,123 --> 01:12:19,168 If this husband of yours turns out half as good as me, he'll be a good 'un. 1151 01:12:19,251 --> 01:12:20,942 - Take my word for it. - Martin's twice the man you are, 1152 01:12:20,962 --> 01:12:21,795 let me tell you. 1153 01:12:21,879 --> 01:12:22,796 He's what? 1154 01:12:22,880 --> 01:12:25,216 - He's bloody well twice the man you are. - He's what? 1155 01:12:25,299 --> 01:12:27,593 Are you trying to tell me that I'm not a man? 1156 01:12:28,469 --> 01:12:30,262 Is this what… is this what you're telling me? 1157 01:12:30,346 --> 01:12:32,203 You're not quite such a big man as you like to think you are. 1158 01:12:32,223 --> 01:12:36,685 I don't think I'm a big man, but I'm a responsible man. A normal man. 1159 01:12:36,768 --> 01:12:38,729 I brought the family up in a normal way. 1160 01:12:38,812 --> 01:12:40,772 - Now I'm beginning to wonder. - Do you think so? 1161 01:12:40,856 --> 01:12:42,108 I'm beginning to wonder. 1162 01:12:42,191 --> 01:12:43,943 You're not such a marvelous family, are you? 1163 01:12:44,026 --> 01:12:46,778 I couldn't wait to get out and look at the state she's ended up in. 1164 01:12:46,862 --> 01:12:47,863 Shut up. 1165 01:12:48,906 --> 01:12:51,117 Throw that bloody jelly over her head, if I was there. 1166 01:12:51,200 --> 01:12:53,577 Now, we're not going to take any notice of your mother, 1167 01:12:53,660 --> 01:12:56,705 and Grandpop making all this noise. 1168 01:12:56,788 --> 01:12:58,604 We're going to have the jelly now. Do you want some? 1169 01:12:58,624 --> 01:13:01,502 That's right, let's all have the jelly. Come on. 1170 01:13:01,585 --> 01:13:05,422 Barbara if you don't stop it, you'll have to leave this house now. I mean it. 1171 01:13:05,506 --> 01:13:06,632 I'm leaving it, don't worry. 1172 01:13:06,715 --> 01:13:09,301 When I've finished saying what I've got to say, I shall go. 1173 01:13:09,385 --> 01:13:12,054 You have yours, love. There you are, dear. 1174 01:13:12,138 --> 01:13:15,182 I think it's disgusting behavior in front of your own dear children. 1175 01:13:15,266 --> 01:13:16,517 I don't know how you can do it. 1176 01:13:16,600 --> 01:13:19,186 Doesn't it ever occur to you why she's in this state? 1177 01:13:19,270 --> 01:13:21,730 Don't you ever think you could be wrong? 1178 01:13:21,813 --> 01:13:23,607 Well, you're never wrong, are you? 1179 01:13:23,690 --> 01:13:26,443 Well, I'm not wrong about this. I know why she's like this. 1180 01:13:26,527 --> 01:13:28,654 Well, before you come round criticizing your mother, 1181 01:13:28,737 --> 01:13:31,512 now have a look at your own two children. They're terrified through you… 1182 01:13:31,532 --> 01:13:32,804 - Terrified? - Raising your bloody voice. 1183 01:13:32,824 --> 01:13:34,515 There's nothing wrong with my children, thank you. 1184 01:13:34,535 --> 01:13:36,828 - They're quite all right. - That's what you think. 1185 01:13:36,912 --> 01:13:38,185 Stop it. I've had just about enough of it. 1186 01:13:38,205 --> 01:13:41,042 I'm not going to stop it and let you shout at me, don't you worry. 1187 01:13:41,125 --> 01:13:43,252 And don't shout at me because I shall set about you, 1188 01:13:43,335 --> 01:13:45,129 as old as you are. 1189 01:13:45,212 --> 01:13:46,838 And don't you forget it, my girl. 1190 01:13:46,922 --> 01:13:49,030 The trouble is they didn't have bloody belts when they were little. 1191 01:13:49,050 --> 01:13:50,509 …or else out you go. 1192 01:13:50,592 --> 01:13:52,634 Now listen, I've got something to tell you, my girl. 1193 01:13:53,554 --> 01:13:56,682 I'm going to mark your card right now for you. 1194 01:13:56,765 --> 01:13:59,060 Do you think we've spent a lifetime, 1195 01:13:59,143 --> 01:14:01,478 building a house like this, 1196 01:14:01,562 --> 01:14:03,814 to be spoken to like this? 1197 01:14:03,897 --> 01:14:06,525 Or hasn't it ever entered your bloody head? 1198 01:14:07,234 --> 01:14:09,695 This is a lifetime's work when you've got children. 1199 01:14:09,778 --> 01:14:12,364 - Yeah, I know that. - You wouldn't realize this. 1200 01:14:12,448 --> 01:14:14,783 …thrust down our throat every five minutes, do we? 1201 01:14:14,866 --> 01:14:17,786 I haven't made her like this. This is what you've done over years, 1202 01:14:17,869 --> 01:14:19,330 not what I've done in one afternoon. 1203 01:14:19,413 --> 01:14:21,498 - You reckon do you? - Yes. I bloody well do. 1204 01:14:21,582 --> 01:14:24,585 The best thing… the best thing you can do is to shut up. 1205 01:14:24,668 --> 01:14:26,128 Stop! 1206 01:14:29,256 --> 01:14:30,257 Jan. 1207 01:14:31,258 --> 01:14:34,803 Jan. Jan, I've got a spare room. 1208 01:14:34,886 --> 01:14:37,431 Come and stay with me, please. Will you, please? 1209 01:14:37,514 --> 01:14:41,185 Get away from them. Jan, please, will you? 1210 01:14:41,268 --> 01:14:43,354 Come on, come with me. 1211 01:14:45,022 --> 01:14:48,900 Barbara, just go. Just go. 1212 01:14:48,984 --> 01:14:50,944 Just leave me. I… I… 1213 01:14:51,028 --> 01:14:52,926 I want to get you out of my sight for a little while. 1214 01:14:52,946 --> 01:14:54,428 I shall go, but I'm going to come back. 1215 01:14:54,448 --> 01:14:55,679 I'm not going to let her to stay in this dump. 1216 01:14:55,699 --> 01:14:57,993 - Go. This minute. Leave us. - Get away from... 1217 01:14:58,077 --> 01:15:01,663 Go on, get out of it, you… Go on! 1218 01:15:01,747 --> 01:15:04,458 Give her her bloody bag or whatever she's left behind then. 1219 01:15:11,840 --> 01:15:14,426 That's it. Don't bother to do it up. 1220 01:15:15,761 --> 01:15:16,637 Right. Come on. 1221 01:15:16,720 --> 01:15:19,473 Fine thing when your children have to leave the house like this. 1222 01:15:19,556 --> 01:15:21,600 Give us a kiss before you go, dear. 1223 01:15:21,683 --> 01:15:23,810 Bye-bye, darling. Bye-bye. 1224 01:15:25,604 --> 01:15:26,730 Bye-bye. 1225 01:17:48,580 --> 01:17:51,958 We heard this clatter, in the middle of the night. 1226 01:17:52,543 --> 01:17:55,212 And we didn't know what the hell it was, and when we went down, 1227 01:17:55,296 --> 01:17:58,089 we found Janice, and she'd broken my clock. 1228 01:17:58,757 --> 01:18:00,926 And it wasn't just an ordinary clock. 1229 01:18:01,427 --> 01:18:04,721 I'd done 25 years' loyal service for this clock. 1230 01:18:04,805 --> 01:18:07,641 And Mr. Prendergast presented it to me personally. 1231 01:18:08,267 --> 01:18:10,477 Never mind, dear. She'll have to replace it. 1232 01:18:10,561 --> 01:18:12,042 - You can't replace it. - When she gets work again. 1233 01:18:12,062 --> 01:18:14,147 It doesn't matter how long it takes her to save up. 1234 01:18:14,231 --> 01:18:15,941 She'll have to replace it. 1235 01:18:16,817 --> 01:18:18,235 Well, Janice? 1236 01:18:20,737 --> 01:18:21,947 Time. 1237 01:18:22,030 --> 01:18:23,156 Time? 1238 01:18:23,657 --> 01:18:25,659 It was killing time. 1239 01:18:25,742 --> 01:18:27,411 Killing time? 1240 01:18:27,494 --> 01:18:29,996 You should be doing bloody time. 1241 01:18:30,831 --> 01:18:33,208 But you'd found work, hadn't you? You were… 1242 01:18:33,834 --> 01:18:35,502 Was the job all right? 1243 01:18:36,086 --> 01:18:37,546 Would you like it? 1244 01:18:38,797 --> 01:18:40,966 Well, I tell you this. This is her lot. 1245 01:18:41,550 --> 01:18:43,635 She can't go anywhere… 1246 01:18:43,719 --> 01:18:46,263 Well, she just can't go anywhere on her own, can she? 1247 01:18:47,514 --> 01:18:50,767 What made you do it, Janice, when we thought you were out of this, 1248 01:18:50,851 --> 01:18:52,894 and it was all over for good? 1249 01:18:55,272 --> 01:18:58,149 I might just as well come back in here, mightn't I, doctor? 1250 01:18:58,233 --> 01:18:59,776 Why do you say that? 1251 01:19:00,444 --> 01:19:03,739 If I don't love them, got to go somewhere. 1252 01:19:06,575 --> 01:19:09,286 I think perhaps we might have a word outside. 1253 01:19:21,965 --> 01:19:24,926 Now there's nothing to worry about. But, probably we ought to… 1254 01:19:26,387 --> 01:19:27,888 Ah, Dr. Garfield. 1255 01:19:28,514 --> 01:19:29,890 Hello, Jan. 1256 01:19:29,973 --> 01:19:33,059 How do you feel about coming back to us for a little while then? 1257 01:19:35,354 --> 01:19:36,688 Hate you all. 1258 01:19:57,543 --> 01:19:59,085 Did something wrong. 1259 01:19:59,836 --> 01:20:00,837 Must've done something. 1260 01:20:01,254 --> 01:20:03,507 You know what she's doing, don't you? 1261 01:20:03,590 --> 01:20:06,468 - Put that down for a minute and listen. - I'm trying to read. 1262 01:20:06,552 --> 01:20:08,387 Yeah. She's going out with men. 1263 01:20:08,470 --> 01:20:10,722 What's more, she's letting them interfere with her. 1264 01:20:10,806 --> 01:20:12,724 I'm not. I'm bloody not. 1265 01:20:12,808 --> 01:20:15,185 - And don't get swearing at me neither. - And what do I do? 1266 01:20:15,268 --> 01:20:17,729 You're turning into a loose girl and you look it too. 1267 01:20:17,813 --> 01:20:20,231 You look as if you're turning into a loose girl. 1268 01:20:20,315 --> 01:20:22,818 You're doing what… I know what you get up to these days. 1269 01:20:22,901 --> 01:20:24,361 I know what you all get up to. 1270 01:20:24,445 --> 01:20:27,113 But don't get coming to me when you've got trouble. 1271 01:20:27,197 --> 01:20:29,220 - Because I don't want to know. - Is sex wrong, or some­thing? 1272 01:20:29,240 --> 01:20:32,828 Sex isn't wrong. No. Sex isn't wrong at all. 1273 01:20:32,911 --> 01:20:36,289 It's very beautiful. In its right place. 1274 01:20:36,373 --> 01:20:37,916 And where's that then? 1275 01:20:37,999 --> 01:20:39,209 In marriage. 1276 01:20:39,292 --> 01:20:41,733 'Course that's something you don't want to know anything about either, is it? 1277 01:20:41,753 --> 01:20:43,338 How do you know what I do? 1278 01:20:43,422 --> 01:20:45,882 You're my daughter, how… how… 1279 01:20:45,966 --> 01:20:47,843 Why should I worry about what happens to you? 1280 01:20:47,926 --> 01:20:52,097 Sex. Sex. Sex. All the time. You can't think I go out and do anything else. 1281 01:20:52,180 --> 01:20:54,808 Dirty Sunday papers. You're disgusting, the pair of you. 1282 01:20:54,891 --> 01:20:56,893 I hope you never regret those words. 1283 01:20:56,977 --> 01:21:00,230 I tell you what I shall do. I'll go out and pick up a man this minute, 1284 01:21:00,313 --> 01:21:02,858 a tramp, anybody, a man on the street, 1285 01:21:02,941 --> 01:21:03,859 and I'll let him have me. 1286 01:21:03,942 --> 01:21:05,736 Cheeky little bloody cow, you are. 1287 01:21:05,819 --> 01:21:07,779 You bloody bitch. 1288 01:21:07,863 --> 01:21:11,324 Don't you dare talk like that in this bloody house again. 1289 01:21:11,408 --> 01:21:14,786 Dirty little whore, that's what you are. 1290 01:21:15,621 --> 01:21:20,083 What I think you need is rest and quiet. Plenty of that, hmm? 1291 01:21:20,166 --> 01:21:23,336 And Dr. Garfield will come and see you in the ward tomorrow. 1292 01:21:25,088 --> 01:21:27,007 I've had hundreds of men, you know. 1293 01:21:28,174 --> 01:21:31,637 Sh… she's a whore. You want to watch her. You… you want to stop her. 1294 01:21:32,137 --> 01:21:35,557 I think you can see inside me, in there. See what she's doing. 1295 01:21:36,558 --> 01:21:39,269 You can have me if you want to. It doesn't really matter. 1296 01:21:40,103 --> 01:21:43,440 Can't have me if I don't exist, can you? Not… not me. 1297 01:21:44,650 --> 01:21:47,402 'Cause if you do away with her that leaves me, doesn't it? 1298 01:21:48,612 --> 01:21:50,989 That's if you want me to exist. 1299 01:21:51,072 --> 01:21:53,992 Yes, of course we want you to exist, Jan. 1300 01:21:55,702 --> 01:21:57,663 I don't know what it feels like. 1301 01:21:58,497 --> 01:22:02,208 Why, it's finding a place in the world. In society. 1302 01:22:02,292 --> 01:22:04,169 You know, making relationships. 1303 01:22:04,252 --> 01:22:05,879 Getting married. Having a family. 1304 01:22:07,589 --> 01:22:09,299 I'm mad then? 1305 01:22:09,382 --> 01:22:11,927 Well, you are ill. 1306 01:22:28,234 --> 01:22:29,319 Hello. 1307 01:22:30,236 --> 01:22:31,237 Hello. 1308 01:22:34,658 --> 01:22:36,326 Just brushing up here. 1309 01:22:39,496 --> 01:22:40,497 Here you are. 1310 01:22:41,206 --> 01:22:42,791 Would you like a cigarette? 1311 01:22:54,928 --> 01:22:57,973 Will you do me a favor? Get that shovel a minute. 1312 01:23:00,016 --> 01:23:02,644 Here you are. I'll just push these leave onto it. 1313 01:23:07,357 --> 01:23:09,067 You know, just dump them in there. 1314 01:23:12,821 --> 01:23:13,864 Here we go. 1315 01:23:19,494 --> 01:23:20,621 All right. 1316 01:23:46,479 --> 01:23:48,231 Are you in here then? 1317 01:23:48,314 --> 01:23:51,317 Yeah. Came of my own accord, though. 1318 01:23:52,944 --> 01:23:54,571 They brought me in here. 1319 01:23:57,073 --> 01:23:58,992 I've had that electric shock treatment. 1320 01:24:00,201 --> 01:24:02,245 - So have I. - But you don't feel anything, do you? 1321 01:24:02,328 --> 01:24:05,415 Not a drop. Luck. 1322 01:24:06,708 --> 01:24:09,460 You don't feel anything. Feel a bit dazed? 1323 01:24:11,337 --> 01:24:13,464 Makes the old memory go off a bit. 1324 01:24:13,548 --> 01:24:14,800 Watch your feet. 1325 01:24:16,760 --> 01:24:19,304 If we're in here. They know what they're doing. 1326 01:24:20,263 --> 01:24:21,264 That's the main thing. 1327 01:24:22,223 --> 01:24:23,725 Always remember, 1328 01:24:24,893 --> 01:24:26,519 must have discipline. 1329 01:24:27,813 --> 01:24:29,690 Must discipline yourself, 1330 01:24:29,773 --> 01:24:31,357 not abuse yourself. 1331 01:24:34,069 --> 01:24:36,571 Look at me. I'm better now. 1332 01:24:37,739 --> 01:24:39,324 I'm off out soon. 1333 01:24:40,617 --> 01:24:42,577 But the other thing I like, 1334 01:24:42,661 --> 01:24:45,706 is you don't get treated like a child. 1335 01:24:45,789 --> 01:24:47,874 Get treated like an adult. 1336 01:24:50,043 --> 01:24:53,839 If you start roughing things up, away go the old privileges. 1337 01:24:55,090 --> 01:24:56,675 I've seen it in the Army. 1338 01:24:56,758 --> 01:24:58,468 Soldiers get bolshie, 1339 01:24:59,052 --> 01:25:00,637 and bolshie they are. 1340 01:25:01,387 --> 01:25:03,807 And where does it end up? 1341 01:25:03,890 --> 01:25:05,350 In the glasshouse. 1342 01:25:06,601 --> 01:25:08,979 None of that nonsense here, you know. 1343 01:25:09,730 --> 01:25:13,149 They give you a chance, and you can make a go of it. 1344 01:25:14,525 --> 01:25:16,444 Have you nearly finished your brushing up? 1345 01:25:17,028 --> 01:25:18,404 Yes, nearly. 1346 01:25:19,572 --> 01:25:21,157 Shall we go for a bit of a walk? 1347 01:25:22,158 --> 01:25:23,660 Go for a walk? 1348 01:25:25,495 --> 01:25:27,122 Yes. Nothing wrong with that. 1349 01:25:33,837 --> 01:25:35,630 Makes them a bit nervous. 1350 01:25:36,422 --> 01:25:37,423 Who? 1351 01:25:38,341 --> 01:25:40,468 The staff. They don't like it. 1352 01:25:40,551 --> 01:25:42,053 Whatever for? 1353 01:25:43,096 --> 01:25:45,140 It's just a bit dodgy, that's all. 1354 01:25:45,223 --> 01:25:48,727 Supposing that you and me were attracted, or anybody else, 1355 01:25:48,810 --> 01:25:53,231 in the hospital were attracted to one another and we, you know. 1356 01:25:53,314 --> 01:25:55,108 I mean, it'd be us, wouldn't it? 1357 01:25:57,235 --> 01:25:59,320 Yeah, but you're a sick person, aren't you? 1358 01:25:59,905 --> 01:26:01,072 Oh. 1359 01:26:01,156 --> 01:26:03,116 While you're here you're under their charge. 1360 01:26:03,199 --> 01:26:05,118 You've got to look at it their way. 1361 01:26:06,745 --> 01:26:09,122 You can't go on like you do outside. 1362 01:26:09,205 --> 01:26:11,541 I don't go on when I'm outside. 1363 01:26:12,208 --> 01:26:14,627 Come off it. I can see you do. 1364 01:26:14,711 --> 01:26:15,628 What? 1365 01:26:15,712 --> 01:26:18,034 You've had more pricks in you than a second­hand dartboard. 1366 01:26:22,719 --> 01:26:25,806 See, you're laughing at it now. I know. 1367 01:26:25,889 --> 01:26:27,490 - That's just your opinion. - Am I right? 1368 01:26:27,515 --> 01:26:28,641 No. 1369 01:26:29,475 --> 01:26:32,729 There's nothing wrong in asking you to go for a walk. I'm not promiscuous. 1370 01:26:34,564 --> 01:26:35,941 Tomorrow afternoon. 1371 01:26:37,483 --> 01:26:39,652 - Same time. - All right. 1372 01:26:40,320 --> 01:26:41,321 But, um, 1373 01:26:43,614 --> 01:26:46,367 it doesn't do to be, uh, telling everybody. 1374 01:26:47,077 --> 01:26:48,244 Keep it quiet. 1375 01:26:49,620 --> 01:26:51,206 And we'll go for a walk. 1376 01:26:52,248 --> 01:26:54,250 All right. I won't tell anybody. 1377 01:26:54,334 --> 01:26:55,418 Well done. 1378 01:26:55,919 --> 01:26:57,628 We'll go for a walk. 1379 01:26:57,712 --> 01:26:58,713 Right. 1380 01:27:00,841 --> 01:27:02,717 - Ta-ta. - Great. 1381 01:27:20,151 --> 01:27:21,862 Jan. 1382 01:27:21,945 --> 01:27:24,239 Er, I'd like a little word in the office. 1383 01:27:24,322 --> 01:27:25,240 What about? 1384 01:27:25,323 --> 01:27:28,659 Oh, just, see how things are. 1385 01:27:30,245 --> 01:27:33,123 - And that is, hmm? - Come on. 1386 01:27:49,222 --> 01:27:50,932 What's it about, Sister? 1387 01:27:53,184 --> 01:27:54,769 It's about Paul Morris. 1388 01:27:56,729 --> 01:27:58,398 He's going out soon. 1389 01:27:59,107 --> 01:28:01,651 - Yes, I know. He told me. - Ah. 1390 01:28:04,029 --> 01:28:06,781 Quite a little friendship you've struck up there. 1391 01:28:07,532 --> 01:28:09,200 No, not really. 1392 01:28:09,284 --> 01:28:11,202 Oh, good. 1393 01:28:11,702 --> 01:28:16,082 'Cause, it's… it's not really quite the thing, Jan, is it? 1394 01:28:16,166 --> 01:28:17,542 Isn't it? 1395 01:28:17,625 --> 01:28:19,377 Ah, you know it's not. 1396 01:28:20,045 --> 01:28:21,838 You sound like my mother. 1397 01:28:22,505 --> 01:28:25,425 That's nothing to be ashamed of. Sit down. 1398 01:28:29,262 --> 01:28:30,805 You see, Jan. 1399 01:28:30,889 --> 01:28:33,391 We don't want you to be taken advantage of. 1400 01:28:33,474 --> 01:28:35,601 I know what I'm doing. 1401 01:28:35,685 --> 01:28:37,395 I didn't say you didn't. 1402 01:28:37,478 --> 01:28:40,106 Look, have I been mis­behaving or something? 1403 01:28:40,190 --> 01:28:43,318 Oh, no. Just a little, self-willed. 1404 01:28:43,401 --> 01:28:47,030 A little, uh, thoughtless. That's all. 1405 01:28:47,864 --> 01:28:49,490 Oh, I see. 1406 01:28:49,574 --> 01:28:51,576 You see Jan, in hospital, 1407 01:28:51,659 --> 01:28:54,329 it isn't quite the thing, I mean, you and Paul. 1408 01:28:54,913 --> 01:28:57,207 I've heard, I don't suppose it's anything serious, 1409 01:28:57,290 --> 01:28:59,667 but I have heard that, um, 1410 01:28:59,750 --> 01:29:04,214 after one of your little walks together, he isn't, um, quite as well. 1411 01:29:05,298 --> 01:29:08,009 - Do you know what I mean, Jan? - No. 1412 01:29:08,093 --> 01:29:10,929 When you go for your little walks I want you to remember this. 1413 01:29:11,012 --> 01:29:12,513 Think about what I've said. 1414 01:29:13,473 --> 01:29:14,765 What are you saying? 1415 01:29:14,849 --> 01:29:16,226 Well. 1416 01:29:17,602 --> 01:29:20,063 The fact is that all sorts of friendships, 1417 01:29:21,189 --> 01:29:23,191 they grow. 1418 01:29:23,274 --> 01:29:24,484 You know that, Jan. 1419 01:29:24,567 --> 01:29:27,737 They grow into deeper waters, 1420 01:29:27,820 --> 01:29:30,448 things that you can't get out of so easily. 1421 01:29:30,531 --> 01:29:32,700 And you might find your­self up to your neck in it. 1422 01:29:32,783 --> 01:29:34,494 I don't think I've ever known. 1423 01:29:34,577 --> 01:29:35,828 That's fine. 1424 01:29:35,912 --> 01:29:37,622 I knew you would be sensible, Jan. 1425 01:29:38,581 --> 01:29:40,083 You're a bright girl. 1426 01:29:41,251 --> 01:29:42,460 Well. 1427 01:29:44,545 --> 01:29:46,422 I'm glad we had this little chat. 1428 01:29:46,506 --> 01:29:48,049 It's cleared the air. 1429 01:29:48,133 --> 01:29:49,175 Oh. 1430 01:30:05,316 --> 01:30:06,567 Stop that! 1431 01:30:07,402 --> 01:30:10,071 Don't, Janice. Don't, Janice. 1432 01:30:11,281 --> 01:30:12,865 Janice, you'll be all right. 1433 01:30:14,659 --> 01:30:16,327 Hold. We've got you. 1434 01:30:24,252 --> 01:30:26,587 Come on. Just sit. Just sit. 1435 01:30:26,671 --> 01:30:29,465 Sit down with me. 1436 01:30:39,059 --> 01:30:39,976 No. I don't want it. 1437 01:30:40,060 --> 01:30:42,937 - No. No. - Open your mouth. Open your mouth, Jan. 1438 01:30:43,021 --> 01:30:45,398 It's good for you, Janice. Oops. 1439 01:30:45,481 --> 01:30:47,150 Have some water. There you are. 1440 01:30:47,233 --> 01:30:49,110 - Just a little water. - No. 1441 01:30:49,194 --> 01:30:52,697 There you are, that's it. It's all right. 1442 01:30:54,282 --> 01:30:55,491 Okay. 1443 01:30:55,575 --> 01:30:56,931 - You'll be all right, darling. - Oh. 1444 01:30:56,951 --> 01:30:58,244 - Lie down. - I didn't want it. 1445 01:30:58,328 --> 01:31:00,038 Come on, Nurse. Thank you. 1446 01:31:08,879 --> 01:31:11,007 Oh. It hurts. 1447 01:31:12,383 --> 01:31:14,927 It will go. It will be all right. 1448 01:31:15,011 --> 01:31:16,887 I can't see anything. 1449 01:31:18,223 --> 01:31:19,765 I can only hear your voice. 1450 01:31:19,849 --> 01:31:23,811 I'm next to you, love, don't worry. You're safe now. 1451 01:31:23,894 --> 01:31:25,480 They're pulling at me again. 1452 01:31:25,563 --> 01:31:27,315 - Bloody wires. - Try and relax, Janice. 1453 01:31:27,398 --> 01:31:29,234 Try and relax, love. 1454 01:31:30,901 --> 01:31:33,696 They've got those wires attached to my head again, going into me. 1455 01:31:33,779 --> 01:31:36,491 - Right inside me, into my brain. - No wires. 1456 01:31:36,574 --> 01:31:38,284 There are no wires. 1457 01:31:39,160 --> 01:31:41,287 This great big machine. 1458 01:31:41,371 --> 01:31:43,164 What machine, Janice? 1459 01:31:43,914 --> 01:31:47,210 Great big machine in the center of the world that controls us all. 1460 01:31:47,293 --> 01:31:49,212 Controls Sister, and you, and me. 1461 01:31:49,295 --> 01:31:53,341 - There's no machine here. Don't be silly. - I can hear it throbbing and… 1462 01:31:53,424 --> 01:31:55,676 Now don't be silly, you are quite safe. 1463 01:31:56,886 --> 01:31:59,472 Controlling us all. Controlling you and sister and me. 1464 01:31:59,555 --> 01:32:01,766 Now don't be frightened, love. Don't be fright­ened. 1465 01:32:01,849 --> 01:32:03,456 - Can you see the walls throbbing? - There's no machine. 1466 01:32:03,476 --> 01:32:05,061 There's no machine around. 1467 01:32:05,145 --> 01:32:06,562 It's throbbing, I'm throbbing. 1468 01:32:06,646 --> 01:32:09,815 Look here, don't be silly. There's no machine around. You mustn't… 1469 01:32:09,899 --> 01:32:11,381 - You mustn't be silly. - It's gonna kill me. 1470 01:32:11,401 --> 01:32:12,652 Nothing's going to kill you. 1471 01:32:12,735 --> 01:32:14,904 Nothing. Nothing's going to happen to you. 1472 01:32:14,987 --> 01:32:16,781 You mustn't be silly. 1473 01:32:16,864 --> 01:32:18,824 We won't let anybody come to you. 1474 01:32:18,908 --> 01:32:21,161 - I'm so scared. - We won't let anybody hurt you. 1475 01:32:21,244 --> 01:32:23,829 Nobody. Come. 1476 01:32:23,913 --> 01:32:25,415 Just relax. 1477 01:32:26,707 --> 01:32:28,209 Just relax. 1478 01:32:28,293 --> 01:32:31,171 That's it. That's it. 1479 01:32:31,254 --> 01:32:32,672 You go to sleep. 1480 01:32:32,755 --> 01:32:35,258 Try, try and relax, Janice. 1481 01:32:36,426 --> 01:32:38,136 That's it, love. 1482 01:32:43,224 --> 01:32:46,436 Just ready for this. Thank you very much, Nurse. 1483 01:32:47,603 --> 01:32:48,813 That all right? 1484 01:33:02,535 --> 01:33:06,247 I really don't know what to think about all this, Janice. Really, I don't. 1485 01:33:06,331 --> 01:33:08,333 It's getting on top of me. 1486 01:33:09,542 --> 01:33:11,043 Look. 1487 01:33:11,127 --> 01:33:13,045 That nurse that was upset, 1488 01:33:13,129 --> 01:33:15,256 she was entitled to be upset. 1489 01:33:16,632 --> 01:33:21,221 I mean, after all these years now, are you beginning to realize who's been right? 1490 01:33:21,304 --> 01:33:23,681 Us or do you still think you're right? 1491 01:33:24,307 --> 01:33:25,516 I don't know. 1492 01:33:25,600 --> 01:33:27,185 You don't know. 1493 01:33:27,268 --> 01:33:28,894 She doesn't know. 1494 01:33:30,230 --> 01:33:32,420 You only attacked the staff nurse with a chair, that's all, 1495 01:33:32,440 --> 01:33:34,024 and you say you don't know. 1496 01:33:35,818 --> 01:33:38,904 Then there's this boy. What's going on there? 1497 01:33:38,988 --> 01:33:41,824 We're very concerned and worried about him. 1498 01:33:43,033 --> 01:33:44,994 I didn't do anything with that boy. 1499 01:33:45,077 --> 01:33:48,498 It was nothing? Yet it ended up with you going wild. 1500 01:33:49,457 --> 01:33:51,667 - I didn't go wild. - What was it then? 1501 01:33:51,751 --> 01:33:53,961 I mean, when we came in here today, I… 1502 01:33:54,044 --> 01:33:56,839 I couldn't look that nurse straight in the face. 1503 01:33:58,966 --> 01:34:00,050 Don't look so miserable. 1504 01:34:00,134 --> 01:34:03,137 We're not really getting at you. Cheer up. 1505 01:34:04,639 --> 01:34:05,890 Look, love. 1506 01:34:07,517 --> 01:34:10,228 Try and behave your­self, for god's sake, will you? 1507 01:34:11,187 --> 01:34:13,939 I mean, you have to collaborate with them. 1508 01:34:16,234 --> 01:34:18,110 Because if you don't, 1509 01:34:18,194 --> 01:34:20,029 you could be in here forever. 1510 01:34:23,366 --> 01:34:24,867 I know. 1511 01:34:25,535 --> 01:34:29,872 Sometimes I think it's if I do cooperate that's how I'll be in here forever. 1512 01:34:36,629 --> 01:34:38,298 Good afternoon. Can I help you? 1513 01:34:38,381 --> 01:34:42,510 Uh, I want to see Janice Bailden. She's in this ward in here. 1514 01:34:42,593 --> 01:34:46,472 Yes, she… she's with her parents now. Shall I give her a message? 1515 01:34:46,556 --> 01:34:49,309 Oh, no, that's all right. I'll wait, thanks. Thank you. 1516 01:34:57,066 --> 01:34:59,902 Look, I'll put it this way to you. 1517 01:34:59,985 --> 01:35:03,781 It's like falling and breaking your leg, or having a broken arm. 1518 01:35:03,864 --> 01:35:06,326 There's nothing to be ashamed of. 1519 01:35:06,409 --> 01:35:08,286 I'm not ashamed. 1520 01:35:09,203 --> 01:35:10,913 This is just it. You're not ashamed. 1521 01:35:10,996 --> 01:35:13,541 Even this would be understandable, 1522 01:35:13,624 --> 01:35:17,127 but you're not. You're a law unto your­self, aren't you? 1523 01:35:17,211 --> 01:35:18,713 You don't have to be ashamed. 1524 01:35:19,547 --> 01:35:21,173 You'd laugh the other side of your face 1525 01:35:21,257 --> 01:35:24,469 if you knew how you had upset us these last few years. 1526 01:35:25,386 --> 01:35:27,930 It's not a bit funny, I can tell you. 1527 01:35:28,013 --> 01:35:29,223 To think that 1528 01:35:29,307 --> 01:35:32,602 we have to come to visiting you in a place like this. 1529 01:35:32,685 --> 01:35:35,771 And another thing. It all comes out of public money, 1530 01:35:35,855 --> 01:35:39,149 it's all free here for you. 1531 01:35:39,233 --> 01:35:42,820 And I think the least you can do is to show just a little appreciation. 1532 01:35:43,446 --> 01:35:47,908 Do you realize that we come here twice a week to see you? 1533 01:35:47,992 --> 01:35:51,329 We've never missed since you've been here. We don't have to come. 1534 01:35:51,412 --> 01:35:53,038 We come here because we love you. 1535 01:35:53,122 --> 01:35:55,750 You think you are doing everybody a big favor, um, 1536 01:35:55,833 --> 01:35:58,461 just being in their presence. 1537 01:35:58,544 --> 01:36:00,838 When, in fact, if you really knew the truth, my dear, 1538 01:36:00,921 --> 01:36:03,466 it's far from that. Far from that. 1539 01:36:04,216 --> 01:36:05,510 - You don't... - Mrs. Bailden. 1540 01:36:05,593 --> 01:36:08,346 - You don't have... - Is every­thing all right? 1541 01:36:08,429 --> 01:36:11,181 - Well, you know we… - Yes, fine. Thank you, nurse. 1542 01:36:11,265 --> 01:36:12,892 It's a bit difficult sometimes, but… 1543 01:36:12,975 --> 01:36:14,164 Well, she's looking much better, isn't she? 1544 01:36:14,184 --> 01:36:17,104 Yes, she is. I… Yes. I suppose she is. Yes. 1545 01:36:17,688 --> 01:36:20,065 I will take your cup and perhaps I will see you later, yes? 1546 01:36:20,149 --> 01:36:21,066 Yes, I'd like to do that. 1547 01:36:21,150 --> 01:36:22,256 - Good. - Thank you very much. 1548 01:36:22,276 --> 01:36:24,612 Thank you. Thank you for looking after her. 1549 01:36:24,695 --> 01:36:26,656 Oh, you are welcome. 1550 01:36:29,700 --> 01:36:32,912 - Don't be so rude. - Damn bloody stupid. 1551 01:36:33,746 --> 01:36:35,748 It's not funny, not a bit funny. 1552 01:36:36,666 --> 01:36:38,376 Are you listening to us? 1553 01:36:39,960 --> 01:36:41,045 Where are you going now? 1554 01:36:41,128 --> 01:36:43,673 - I'm going for a wee. - Going for a walk? Where to? 1555 01:36:43,756 --> 01:36:45,841 A wee. A widdle. A piddle. 1556 01:36:45,925 --> 01:36:48,844 That's charming. 1557 01:36:59,229 --> 01:37:02,191 Jan. Jan. 1558 01:37:04,694 --> 01:37:05,986 Oh, Tim. 1559 01:37:08,406 --> 01:37:09,407 Hey. 1560 01:37:10,491 --> 01:37:11,951 What are you doing here? 1561 01:37:12,034 --> 01:37:14,495 - I came to see you. - Here in the hospital. 1562 01:37:14,579 --> 01:37:16,038 Tell lies about you. 1563 01:37:16,121 --> 01:37:17,331 What are you talking about? 1564 01:37:17,415 --> 01:37:20,000 You don't know what they do. 1565 01:37:20,084 --> 01:37:22,044 They say things behind your back. 1566 01:37:22,127 --> 01:37:23,629 Who do? 1567 01:37:23,713 --> 01:37:26,340 Sister'd keep you here forever. 1568 01:37:26,424 --> 01:37:29,635 - What are you talking about, Jan? - Don't you understand this? It's no use. 1569 01:37:29,719 --> 01:37:32,221 - Calm down... - You'll be here forever. 1570 01:37:32,304 --> 01:37:34,640 Where's your coat? Eh? 1571 01:37:34,724 --> 01:37:36,308 - Come on. - My coat's in the bedroom. 1572 01:37:36,392 --> 01:37:37,602 Where's your bedroom? 1573 01:37:38,268 --> 01:37:39,269 It's in there. 1574 01:37:39,353 --> 01:37:41,396 - Right, go on. Go and get it. Go on. - If I listen… 1575 01:37:41,439 --> 01:37:44,402 You're not stopping here. You're not stopping here. Come on, get your coat. 1576 01:37:58,748 --> 01:37:59,915 Jan. 1577 01:38:00,666 --> 01:38:01,834 Come on. 1578 01:38:41,457 --> 01:38:45,044 But all this time that's going past, this is what I'm concerned with. 1579 01:38:45,127 --> 01:38:47,087 Can't you do… send out and find her? 1580 01:38:47,171 --> 01:38:49,111 Well, you know she's a voluntary patient here, don't you? 1581 01:38:49,131 --> 01:38:53,469 Yes, I know she's a voluntary patient, but surely somebody must be responsible. 1582 01:38:53,553 --> 01:38:55,345 I mean, voluntary is one thing, 1583 01:38:55,429 --> 01:38:57,557 but you can't send a person in, like… 1584 01:38:57,640 --> 01:38:58,808 in the state Janice was in. 1585 01:38:58,891 --> 01:39:00,706 Mrs. Bailden, to bring her in against her wishes, 1586 01:39:00,726 --> 01:39:02,436 is a very, very serious step. 1587 01:39:02,520 --> 01:39:04,354 I must, in fact, be convinced 1588 01:39:04,438 --> 01:39:07,107 either that she will do harm to herself or another, 1589 01:39:07,191 --> 01:39:10,736 or B, that she is incapable of looking after herself now. 1590 01:39:10,820 --> 01:39:14,574 I can assure you she's that. She's just that, she's not capable. 1591 01:39:14,657 --> 01:39:18,285 I ought to know. I've been through years of this now, 1592 01:39:18,368 --> 01:39:21,997 and it's been absolutely impossible. Now this. 1593 01:39:22,081 --> 01:39:25,918 Yes, there is a… a procedure under section 29. 1594 01:39:26,001 --> 01:39:28,128 The general practitioner signs the application. 1595 01:39:28,212 --> 01:39:30,506 The general practitioner! 1596 01:39:30,590 --> 01:39:35,511 You, a consultant at a hospital beholding to a general practitioner. 1597 01:39:35,595 --> 01:39:39,014 I'm washing my hands of this. You're the one responsible. 1598 01:39:39,098 --> 01:39:40,766 - I'm the only... - Quite right as well. 1599 01:39:40,850 --> 01:39:42,309 I'm the only medical person here... 1600 01:39:42,392 --> 01:39:45,312 Well, I'm afraid you'll have to be the only one to do it as well then. 1601 01:39:45,395 --> 01:39:47,147 Just… It'd be as easy as that. 1602 01:39:47,231 --> 01:39:50,818 Because I'm holding you personally responsible for my daughter. 1603 01:39:50,901 --> 01:39:53,070 Because I brought her here in good faith 1604 01:39:53,153 --> 01:39:56,115 and I thought that she would be under some control, 1605 01:39:56,198 --> 01:39:57,825 but obviously she hasn't been. 1606 01:40:46,081 --> 01:40:49,752 You know, if I have to go back into hospital then I won't… 1607 01:40:50,878 --> 01:40:52,713 There'd be no more coming out. 1608 01:40:54,840 --> 01:40:56,008 Won't there? 1609 01:40:57,551 --> 01:40:58,761 Why not? 1610 01:41:07,603 --> 01:41:11,148 Well, for one thing, people know what you are there, don't they? 1611 01:41:13,734 --> 01:41:17,697 They get on with looking after you, and you get on with feeling the pain. 1612 01:41:19,865 --> 01:41:24,119 What sort of pain can you feel when you're on tran… tranquillizers, Jan? 1613 01:41:28,708 --> 01:41:30,125 It's a long way away. 1614 01:41:30,751 --> 01:41:32,127 It's very far away. 1615 01:41:34,797 --> 01:41:36,716 But at least I don't feel unreal. 1616 01:41:39,426 --> 01:41:41,011 I don't feel anything. 1617 01:41:43,597 --> 01:41:44,598 Nothing. 1618 01:42:28,517 --> 01:42:29,977 Mr. Foster? 1619 01:42:30,060 --> 01:42:31,478 What do you want? 1620 01:42:31,561 --> 01:42:34,899 I think you have Miss Janice Bailden here. 1621 01:42:34,982 --> 01:42:35,858 Yes, that's right. 1622 01:42:35,941 --> 01:42:38,610 Eh, may we come in? 1623 01:42:44,950 --> 01:42:47,369 - Is that your room at the end there? - Yeah. 1624 01:42:47,452 --> 01:42:51,581 Wait here. I think… We'll just look in, if you don't mind? 1625 01:42:54,376 --> 01:42:57,296 - Is Janice in here? - Er, yes. She's asleep. 1626 01:42:57,379 --> 01:42:59,048 Now look, young man, I'm a doctor. 1627 01:42:59,131 --> 01:43:01,633 She's a sick girl. A very sick girl. 1628 01:43:01,717 --> 01:43:04,261 I know I can help her. Now, do you mind getting out of my way? 1629 01:43:04,344 --> 01:43:05,425 Look, I live here you know. 1630 01:43:05,470 --> 01:43:07,556 Yes, I know, young man. She's in need of my help. 1631 01:43:07,639 --> 01:43:09,433 - Oh, yeah. - Where's the switch? 1632 01:43:09,516 --> 01:43:12,436 Now just let me pass, young man, and I'll see to her. No need to worry. 1633 01:43:12,519 --> 01:43:16,190 If you'd just… just let the doctor look at her. 1634 01:43:18,984 --> 01:43:20,027 Janice. 1635 01:43:20,945 --> 01:43:22,321 Janice. 1636 01:43:22,404 --> 01:43:23,823 Wake up, Janice, girl. 1637 01:43:27,159 --> 01:43:28,953 Now, do you recognize me, Janice? 1638 01:43:33,415 --> 01:43:35,918 Janice, I'm the doctor from the hospital. 1639 01:43:36,001 --> 01:43:37,837 You've seen me many times. 1640 01:43:39,213 --> 01:43:41,256 Don't you think she'd be far better off in hospital, 1641 01:43:41,340 --> 01:43:43,342 rather than down here on the floor? 1642 01:43:43,425 --> 01:43:45,010 No, I don't actually. 1643 01:43:45,094 --> 01:43:46,595 - You don't? - No. 1644 01:43:46,678 --> 01:43:49,639 You just stay there, and I'll get the ambulance men. 1645 01:43:49,723 --> 01:43:53,102 And we'll be off in a few moments. Nothing to worry about. 1646 01:44:02,111 --> 01:44:04,696 Well, she'll… obviously, she'll have to come back in. 1647 01:44:04,780 --> 01:44:06,448 - Yes. - In no state to be left here. 1648 01:44:06,531 --> 01:44:09,034 If you go and get the men… 1649 01:44:09,118 --> 01:44:11,078 - All right, doctor. - Thank you. 1650 01:44:18,502 --> 01:44:20,254 The girl's in the corner. 1651 01:44:24,341 --> 01:44:26,593 Now come along, Janice, everything's all right now. 1652 01:44:26,676 --> 01:44:28,033 - You'll be all right. - Your coat. 1653 01:44:28,053 --> 01:44:29,889 You haven't got any right to do this. 1654 01:44:29,972 --> 01:44:32,599 Look, lad, she either comes of her own free will, 1655 01:44:32,682 --> 01:44:35,415 or we put her on a section. If we do that she becomes a compulsory patient. 1656 01:44:35,435 --> 01:44:36,353 Oh, fuck off. 1657 01:44:36,436 --> 01:44:38,230 Look, if… if she's a compulsory patient, 1658 01:44:38,313 --> 01:44:40,774 you'll be in trouble with the police, I'm telling you. 1659 01:44:40,858 --> 01:44:42,214 - So you might as well... - Get off! 1660 01:44:42,234 --> 01:44:43,986 Now come on, lad. Come on. 1661 01:44:44,069 --> 01:44:45,362 Get off! 1662 01:44:45,445 --> 01:44:47,114 Behave yourself. Come on. 1663 01:44:47,197 --> 01:44:48,220 - Behave yourself. - Get back! 1664 01:44:48,240 --> 01:44:49,429 - Look after the girl. - Bastards. 1665 01:44:49,449 --> 01:44:51,576 - Behave yourself. Get hold of his arms. - Back off. 1666 01:44:51,660 --> 01:44:52,953 Get off. Leave. 1667 01:44:53,037 --> 01:44:54,601 Stop it, or we'll have to have the police in here. 1668 01:44:54,621 --> 01:44:56,415 Well, turn it in. 1669 01:44:56,498 --> 01:44:58,105 Just look after the girl. I'll look after him. 1670 01:44:58,125 --> 01:45:00,169 Come on love, you'll be all right. 1671 01:45:00,252 --> 01:45:01,921 Get off. 1672 01:45:02,004 --> 01:45:04,048 - I'll cover her legs up. - Okay. 1673 01:45:05,424 --> 01:45:06,716 Keep your eye on him. 1674 01:45:23,859 --> 01:45:25,527 Here. These are hers. 1675 01:45:25,610 --> 01:45:27,112 Uh, thank you. 1676 01:45:37,831 --> 01:45:40,750 Now. In order to ill­ustrate some of the things 1677 01:45:40,834 --> 01:45:42,461 we've been talking about, 1678 01:45:42,544 --> 01:45:45,755 I have brought along a, a young girl. 1679 01:45:45,839 --> 01:45:49,134 In many ways, a very, typical case history. 1680 01:45:49,218 --> 01:45:52,304 From a reasonably happy background. 1681 01:45:52,387 --> 01:45:54,139 Comfortable home. 1682 01:45:54,223 --> 01:45:56,308 Happy childhood. 1683 01:45:56,391 --> 01:46:00,229 No sign of any sort of disturbance until her late teens. 1684 01:46:01,021 --> 01:46:02,814 Then, 1685 01:46:02,898 --> 01:46:05,567 in and out of various jobs for a while. 1686 01:46:06,944 --> 01:46:09,529 Her case notes here include, 1687 01:46:10,572 --> 01:46:12,449 thought­ blocking, 1688 01:46:12,532 --> 01:46:14,784 over inclusion, 1689 01:46:14,868 --> 01:46:16,912 emotional apathy, 1690 01:46:17,871 --> 01:46:19,748 automatic obedience. 1691 01:46:20,249 --> 01:46:22,876 And as far as we know, 1692 01:46:22,960 --> 01:46:26,088 there's no discernible connection between her various symptoms, 1693 01:46:26,171 --> 01:46:27,589 and her environment. 1694 01:46:29,174 --> 01:46:31,343 Now, I'll have her in. 1695 01:46:33,971 --> 01:46:35,764 Staff Nurse, would you bring her in. 1696 01:46:41,186 --> 01:46:42,771 Come on, Janice. 1697 01:46:45,899 --> 01:46:47,192 Sit down. 1698 01:46:48,402 --> 01:46:50,320 That's it. 1699 01:46:51,989 --> 01:46:53,865 Good morning, Janice. 1700 01:46:54,449 --> 01:46:56,410 How are you this morning? 1701 01:46:57,953 --> 01:46:59,871 You'll notice she doesn't reply. 1702 01:47:00,998 --> 01:47:05,044 This is a, good example of extreme mutism. 1703 01:47:08,255 --> 01:47:11,758 I think the clinical picture is a fairly clear one. 1704 01:47:11,841 --> 01:47:13,218 And the, uh, 1705 01:47:13,302 --> 01:47:16,555 present condition of the patient, what you might call a, 1706 01:47:16,638 --> 01:47:19,266 logical expectation, 1707 01:47:19,349 --> 01:47:21,268 given the case history. 1708 01:47:23,478 --> 01:47:24,521 Now. 1709 01:47:27,357 --> 01:47:28,400 Any questions?